mokie; 01 february
loves her foursome and the AWesome boy (:


amanda
cassandra
cheryl-jo
chiah hui
cindy
eugene
glyn
henry
huei jing
jaclyn
jacqueline
jasmine
jason
koreanatan
lydia
lynn
shayne
sheena
shirnnie
sue jean
suyuan
vanessa
veronica
vincent
wei wen

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Claire for the Icon Switching Codes.
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what do you miss most...

"waking up next to you every morning. you?"

"knowing that the day wouldn't end without you."

the (sweet) things you say stay with me for a long time (:


HELLO BLOG!
sorry to have neglected you for so long.
but honestly, i'm losing interest in you.

maybe it's age or maybe it's just me,
kinda find it pointless to share about my life in this space which is obviously not private.
in the past when we were mostly occupied with school, i used to blog often so that close friends (whom i give the url of this blog to) could be updated with what is going on in my life.

however, now that i've got more time to meet up with friends, where we get to update about our lives over coffee or meals, i will not be updating this space so frequently anymore. i mean like, for who to read right?? hee.

so anyway, i've found a job! and i'm starting work on 4 July!
hello Glynnie, colleague, lunch buddy and bff!
bummer till end of June then! enjoying life now, kinda. hehs.

oh yea, my convocation is on 6 July, freaking 8pm.
say hello to ugly outdoor photos under bad lighting. HAIZ. super sian.
but it's fine, perhaps we'll be reaching earlier to take some photos with beloved Jasmine who is having her convocation before ours. ((:

okay, going into the main topic now, my "grad trip"!!
our trip to Korea got cancelled due to many various (unexpected) reasons, but hopefully, i'll be in Korea next April with the babes! *fingers crossed.

so, while Glyn immersed herself in the cultured and romantic Europe, and Jasmine went ahead with Korea, i went on a shorter and more budgeted trip to Hong Kong with the Taiwan gang. turns out, the trip was not very budget and i'm now in a $1k debt. need more self-control! thinking about how much i spent for this trip, i feel like i should have said yes to Perth then instead. hehs.

i'm really thankful for my cousin and Johnston, for saying yes despite my last minute request and then taking care of me like a little (troublesome) sister.
love them for being so chop-chop and easy going!!

photos are up on fb and i'm lazy to upload more here.
can't wait to get the pictures from Johnston's camera. the older generation people are taking such a long time...

highlights of Macau/Zhuhai/HK:

- gambled in macau casinos and won erm, 10 bucks
- gondola journey with an angel, Aurelia
- i will go back to zhuhai solely for "Old Lee's BBQ Bar"!
- disneyland where i thought i almost traded my life for the travel mates' pleasure in some stupid Space Trader rollercoaster in the dark
- H&M for the first time~
- freaking got dragged up to DANCE in hard rock cafe. it isnt even a club and the dance floor was not crowded. and then we all got a little tipsy. hehs. need to forget how i rolled off the bed playing indian poker.
- erm, got some sort of road block/police check thing where the policemen were so helpful to notify us that the dishonest cabby took a longer route
- had lotsa roasted pigeon and goose, suckling pig and char siew and egg tarts
- hello my first ever kate spade bag!! i've waited so long~
- hello my agnes b spectacles which cost as much as a pair of brandless spectacles in SG

and of course all the other necessities (SASA etc) and non-necessities i bought which caused me to be in debt but still happy =D

LASTLY, thank you my one and only dearest love. thank you for giving in to my mood swings and nonsense throughout the trip (minus day 1 evening, hmph!) and beyond. i know i can get really difficult when i'm having the "pms" which could last for one whole week sometimes. or when i get unreasonably insecure or paranoid when i see/hear certain name(s) i dislike.

over the years, you've evolved from being a

passionate lover - we could be so irrationally happy as long as we're together. even when there are times we argue, we were ever-ready to sweep everything under the carpet and just make peace. but obviously that isnt healthy. those issues unresolved come back to haunt us at times.

to one of my bestest friends - i can tell you almost anything and not be afraid that i might be judged. we can now trash things out and work out solutions to make our relationship better.
you make me feel like i could trust you with my everything and know that you'll never break my heart. what i love most about you is that you treat me with respect and sincerity ((:

and of late, my right-hand man/advisor - funny how you can now advise me on clothes and stuff, just that you're far from gay! and then the other aspects of my life as well. patiently and gently lecture me at times when i deserve it, just so i would become a better person.

no matter what the future holds for us, i'll be grateful for whatever we shared.
i'm glad it's you, you deserve me in every way ((:
i love you, dear.


just had a friend called to cry about something that happened at work.
you make a mistake or two, you get picked on from now on sort of thing...
she added, "work life is really not easy..."
yea, i figured.
and this kinda made me slightly nervous.

gosh.

(love, i'll always be there for you! jiayou~)

and since i'm on this topic about WORK, i feel the need to be stressing this again
(despite telling a few close friends about it already...)

i understand if someone close to me makes a comment like,
"you should really START looking for job already, you know..."

i know that they're concerned and worried for me that i might not be able to secure a ("good") job if all the job vacancies are snapped up by those who act fast.

BUT, if you're not even someone CLOSE and you make such a comment and still give me the tsk-tsk-tsk face when i say i have yet to start sending out my resume or have not been actively looking for a job yet, then seriously just go away la~

i honestly dont think you actually CARE if i get a job or not.
like it's even better that i'm not vying for something you're eyeing right?
or you probably dont even see me as a competition or threat.

you are just judging me based on your own opinions that for some reason,
everyone needs to and SHOULD get a job as soon as we graduate.
or even better, secure a position BEFORE we even graduate.
and for people who dont, they're like losers or slackers or whatever.

please, it's not like if you have a different viewpoint as me on job hunting,
i'm gonna give you the what-is-wrong-with-you face and tell you to relax la, enjoy life first, we have the REST OF OUR LIVES to work.

so the next time you feel the burning need to ask someone (whom you are really not that close with) about their job hunting etc, do not make comments that make yourself appear stupid and annoying.

thanks.

that's all (:


Things don’t go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up. They happen to break you down and build you up so you can be all that you were intended to be.


i'm blogging at 4.44am when i should really go to bed.

but i am too EXCITED, kind of.

i THINK i have finally completed my dissertation??
*fingers crossed!!

there's only about 7 days to the official submission.
i need to...

first, get the final draft i just emailed my supervisor APPROVED. approved as in no more massive changes please! i cannot take another blow. i will like break down (again).

secondly, get someone to proof-read and make sure my language is alright.
my writing has been criticised to be too colloquial and journalistic. WHOOPS.
must be all these blogging and reading of 8days stuff.

next, i honestly need help with even microsoft word!!
tmd. HOW to make page 1 start on chapter 1 and not the cover page???
HOW to use the labeling of tables and figures so that the numbering follows the headings??
can't do it manually because i need this function to generate the list of tables etc for me as well.

lastly, get my FINAL error-free dissertation burned into a CD.
thankfully i have a brother at home. am a complete idiot when it comes to such stuff.
but i promise to watch and LEARN.

so happy!! i can almost smell the end of this torturous ordeal.
but then again, it's been so near yet so far this few weeks.
(PLEASE approve my final draft!!)

wells. but this is still not the end.

omg. the horrors of finding a job.
GOSH. one. thing. at. a. time. (listing things down helps)

when i'm done with this whole dissertation thing, i'm gonna...
1. work on my (pathetic and miserable) resume
2. take passport size photo (??)
3. send out resumes (duh)
4. and PRAY. pray very very hard.
not to get the job i want, cos honestly, i have no idea what i WANT.
but to land myself in a job where the corporate culture is suitable for me and i won't have to cry the night before first day of work (haha. inside joke.)

i'm actually a little excited about interviews and actually, WORKING.

wells, i'm only saying now...

anyway, throughout the course of doing my dissertation (especially towards the end), i've realised that it's the people you least expected to help who end up giving you the most assistance.

of course, i am super thankful for nini and drew who went down to shopping malls to conduct the survey with me.

nn, remember how i actually almost fainted at eastpoint??!?! like WTF. and nn had to get me orange juice. thanks nn for saving me!

n i still remember i was actually pissed off w drew for can't-remember-what-reason (then i annoyingly refused to eat lunch "because i got no appetite) when we went parkway to conduct survey. i thought he was not going to bother about my survey anymore but he still helped me after all. HEE...

but what touches me most is that a friend whom i had misunderstandings with extended her help when i was confronted with difficulties.
i always felt like we will never go back to how we were back then...
however, she was willing to spare me one whole saturday to guide me on the usage of stupid SPSS to run my not-very-challenging data.
thank you, my friend.

and the one last person whom i feel so indebted to...
i can't really talk about this person here but anyway,
thank you very much, saviour!!
if it had not been for you, i would be so lost, confused and demoralised.

can never thank the both of you enough.

before i go,

Glyn-san!! (you wouldnt be reading this within this period but,) JIAYOU~
you zai-shit. still can't believe this girl. really can come out with stuff during the last minute.
i would have panicked and died.

after march 4, let's meet up, friends!
(or maybe after march 11... got Japanese 1 mid-term on 10th and another individual assignment due on 11th. HMM.)

alright, it's like 5.30am now (so late bcos i typed sth and decided i shldnt post after all).
GOODNIGHT~


blogger should so have a reblog function like tumblr.

another amazing post taken from sunshine girl, sheena's blog. ((:


This one time I painted a living room with a girl.

This was a handful of years back. It was about eight months before the huge, flame-out of a breakup. That day, though? That day we painted the living room? It was pretty uneventful. We painted my parents living room for $50 between us and a pizza. That was it. I think we watched Anchorman or something after that.

But it still holds as one of the most indelible memories I have. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not still in love, it happened, it was good, it ended, and we’ve both moved on. But I’ll never forget that day. Because it’s never, in the long run, about the grand gestures. You can fly across the world and show up on her doorstep with a rose in your teeth and a ring in a little velvet box but I can guarantee you that - more often than not - she’s going to remember the time you built the birdhouse in the back yard, or what have you, a whole lot more.

Life wasn’t meant to be taken in large movements. The next day will inevitably arrive, you’ll sleep, and the moment will have passed. But when you have a hundred thousand small moments, you can step back and appreciate the picture a lot more than metaphorically blowing your load on some grand moment that, in all honesty, look, you’re not Bruce Fucking Springsteen, you’re not going to be able to blow everyone’s mind every single night. You’re not Romeo and/or Juliet. There’s no reason to drink the poison together in some flame-out gesture. So that leaves us with the small stuff. It’s all about the detail.

That’s what love is. Attention to detail.

And the moment will end. And then things will get boring. And it might get a little quiet. And it might all end horribly. And you might hate each other at the end. And you might walk away from each other one day and never speak again. But that’s just how it goes.

But she’ll remember the time you held the door open for her on your first date.

She’ll remember the time you laughed at her impression of the landlady.

She’ll remember the time you stayed up all night that first time.

She’ll remember the small things a lot longer than the big ones.

But everything ends. And I’ll tell you why you have to make the small things, the small moments count so much more:

One day, probably a while longer from now, when old age takes ahold of someone, she might just only remember your smile. Everything you ever did together, every second, every moment, every beat, every morning spent in bed, every evening spent together on the sofa, all of that - gone. Everything you ever did will be reduced to the head of a pin. She won’t remember your name. She’ll just remember your smile, and she’ll smile. She won’t know why. It’s a base, gut reaction. But she’ll smile, uncontrollably, and it will come from somewhere so deep as to know that you touched her on a primal, honest, and true level that no scientist, scholar, or savant could ever begin to explain. There is no more. There is nothing else. There is just this: She’ll remember your smile, and she’ll smile.

And you know what? That’s all that really matters in the end.

Source: nedhepburn

it's so true.
i can barely recall the last time i received flowers from you, or when we actually bothered to dress up and go on a date-date.

but i'll never forget all the little things you did for me, the silly comments you made and all the laughter and joy you brought into my life.

as long as i'm with you......

((:


recently, i chanced upon a pretty old song from some old movie, dirty dancing.
and i LOVE it. =D
it's the kind of song you can play at your wedding! KEKE.
or maybe not...

anyway, i prefer the version by katie price and peter andre instead of the original one.

I'VE HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE

Now I've had the time of my life
No I never felt like this before
Yes I swear it's the truth
and I owe it all to you

'Cause I've had the time of my life
and I owe it all to you

I've been waiting for so long
Now I've finally found someone
To stand by me

We saw the writing on the wall
As we felt this magical fantasy

Now with passion in our eyes
There's no way we could disguise it secretly
So we take each other's hand
'Cause we seem to understand the urgency

Just remember

You're the one thing

I can't get enough of

So I'll tell you something

This could be love because

(CHORUS)
I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before
Yes I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you

With my body and soul
I want you more than you'll ever know

So we'll just let it go
Don't be afraid to lose control

Yes I know whats on your mind
When you say:
"Stay with me tonight."

Just remember
You're the one thing

I can't get enough of

So I'll tell you something

This could be love because

(CHORUS)
I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before
Yes I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you

Now I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before

(Never Felt this way)

Yes I swear it's the truth
and I owe it all to you

go listen to it if you haven't!!
there's this "love is in the air" dreamy erm, touch to it~
haha.

* * *
you're the one thing i can't get enough of...
((: