*The Magic of her Smile

2011-06-19T16:52:00.004+08:00

what do you miss most...

"waking up next to you every morning. you?"

"knowing that the day wouldn't end without you."

the (sweet) things you say stay with me for a long time (:

2011-06-17T16:47:00.005+08:00

HELLO BLOG!
sorry to have neglected you for so long.
but honestly, i'm losing interest in you.

maybe it's age or maybe it's just me,
kinda find it pointless to share about my life in this space which is obviously not private.
in the past when we were mostly occupied with school, i used to blog often so that close friends (whom i give the url of this blog to) could be updated with what is going on in my life.

however, now that i've got more time to meet up with friends, where we get to update about our lives over coffee or meals, i will not be updating this space so frequently anymore. i mean like, for who to read right?? hee.

so anyway, i've found a job! and i'm starting work on 4 July!
hello Glynnie, colleague, lunch buddy and bff!
bummer till end of June then! enjoying life now, kinda. hehs.

oh yea, my convocation is on 6 July, freaking 8pm.
say hello to ugly outdoor photos under bad lighting. HAIZ. super sian.
but it's fine, perhaps we'll be reaching earlier to take some photos with beloved Jasmine who is having her convocation before ours. ((:

okay, going into the main topic now, my "grad trip"!!
our trip to Korea got cancelled due to many various (unexpected) reasons, but hopefully, i'll be in Korea next April with the babes! *fingers crossed.

so, while Glyn immersed herself in the cultured and romantic Europe, and Jasmine went ahead with Korea, i went on a shorter and more budgeted trip to Hong Kong with the Taiwan gang. turns out, the trip was not very budget and i'm now in a $1k debt. need more self-control! thinking about how much i spent for this trip, i feel like i should have said yes to Perth then instead. hehs.

i'm really thankful for my cousin and Johnston, for saying yes despite my last minute request and then taking care of me like a little (troublesome) sister.
love them for being so chop-chop and easy going!!

photos are up on fb and i'm lazy to upload more here.
can't wait to get the pictures from Johnston's camera. the older generation people are taking such a long time...

highlights of Macau/Zhuhai/HK:

- gambled in macau casinos and won erm, 10 bucks
- gondola journey with an angel, Aurelia
- i will go back to zhuhai solely for "Old Lee's BBQ Bar"!
- disneyland where i thought i almost traded my life for the travel mates' pleasure in some stupid Space Trader rollercoaster in the dark
- H&M for the first time~
- freaking got dragged up to DANCE in hard rock cafe. it isnt even a club and the dance floor was not crowded. and then we all got a little tipsy. hehs. need to forget how i rolled off the bed playing indian poker.
- erm, got some sort of road block/police check thing where the policemen were so helpful to notify us that the dishonest cabby took a longer route
- had lotsa roasted pigeon and goose, suckling pig and char siew and egg tarts
- hello my first ever kate spade bag!! i've waited so long~
- hello my agnes b spectacles which cost as much as a pair of brandless spectacles in SG

and of course all the other necessities (SASA etc) and non-necessities i bought which caused me to be in debt but still happy =D

LASTLY, thank you my one and only dearest love. thank you for giving in to my mood swings and nonsense throughout the trip (minus day 1 evening, hmph!) and beyond. i know i can get really difficult when i'm having the "pms" which could last for one whole week sometimes. or when i get unreasonably insecure or paranoid when i see/hear certain name(s) i dislike.

over the years, you've evolved from being a

passionate lover - we could be so irrationally happy as long as we're together. even when there are times we argue, we were ever-ready to sweep everything under the carpet and just make peace. but obviously that isnt healthy. those issues unresolved come back to haunt us at times.

to one of my bestest friends - i can tell you almost anything and not be afraid that i might be judged. we can now trash things out and work out solutions to make our relationship better.
you make me feel like i could trust you with my everything and know that you'll never break my heart. what i love most about you is that you treat me with respect and sincerity ((:

and of late, my right-hand man/advisor - funny how you can now advise me on clothes and stuff, just that you're far from gay! and then the other aspects of my life as well. patiently and gently lecture me at times when i deserve it, just so i would become a better person.

no matter what the future holds for us, i'll be grateful for whatever we shared.
i'm glad it's you, you deserve me in every way ((:
i love you, dear.

2011-03-16T12:20:00.002+08:00

just had a friend called to cry about something that happened at work.
you make a mistake or two, you get picked on from now on sort of thing...
she added, "work life is really not easy..."
yea, i figured.
and this kinda made me slightly nervous.

gosh.

(love, i'll always be there for you! jiayou~)

and since i'm on this topic about WORK, i feel the need to be stressing this again
(despite telling a few close friends about it already...)

i understand if someone close to me makes a comment like,
"you should really START looking for job already, you know..."

i know that they're concerned and worried for me that i might not be able to secure a ("good") job if all the job vacancies are snapped up by those who act fast.

BUT, if you're not even someone CLOSE and you make such a comment and still give me the tsk-tsk-tsk face when i say i have yet to start sending out my resume or have not been actively looking for a job yet, then seriously just go away la~

i honestly dont think you actually CARE if i get a job or not.
like it's even better that i'm not vying for something you're eyeing right?
or you probably dont even see me as a competition or threat.

you are just judging me based on your own opinions that for some reason,
everyone needs to and SHOULD get a job as soon as we graduate.
or even better, secure a position BEFORE we even graduate.
and for people who dont, they're like losers or slackers or whatever.

please, it's not like if you have a different viewpoint as me on job hunting,
i'm gonna give you the what-is-wrong-with-you face and tell you to relax la, enjoy life first, we have the REST OF OUR LIVES to work.

so the next time you feel the burning need to ask someone (whom you are really not that close with) about their job hunting etc, do not make comments that make yourself appear stupid and annoying.

thanks.

that's all (:

2011-03-12T15:40:00.000+08:00

Things don’t go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up. They happen to break you down and build you up so you can be all that you were intended to be.

2011-02-25T04:44:00.002+08:00

i'm blogging at 4.44am when i should really go to bed.

but i am too EXCITED, kind of.

i THINK i have finally completed my dissertation??
*fingers crossed!!

there's only about 7 days to the official submission.
i need to...

first, get the final draft i just emailed my supervisor APPROVED. approved as in no more massive changes please! i cannot take another blow. i will like break down (again).

secondly, get someone to proof-read and make sure my language is alright.
my writing has been criticised to be too colloquial and journalistic. WHOOPS.
must be all these blogging and reading of 8days stuff.

next, i honestly need help with even microsoft word!!
tmd. HOW to make page 1 start on chapter 1 and not the cover page???
HOW to use the labeling of tables and figures so that the numbering follows the headings??
can't do it manually because i need this function to generate the list of tables etc for me as well.

lastly, get my FINAL error-free dissertation burned into a CD.
thankfully i have a brother at home. am a complete idiot when it comes to such stuff.
but i promise to watch and LEARN.

so happy!! i can almost smell the end of this torturous ordeal.
but then again, it's been so near yet so far this few weeks.
(PLEASE approve my final draft!!)

wells. but this is still not the end.

omg. the horrors of finding a job.
GOSH. one. thing. at. a. time. (listing things down helps)

when i'm done with this whole dissertation thing, i'm gonna...
1. work on my (pathetic and miserable) resume
2. take passport size photo (??)
3. send out resumes (duh)
4. and PRAY. pray very very hard.
not to get the job i want, cos honestly, i have no idea what i WANT.
but to land myself in a job where the corporate culture is suitable for me and i won't have to cry the night before first day of work (haha. inside joke.)

i'm actually a little excited about interviews and actually, WORKING.

wells, i'm only saying now...

anyway, throughout the course of doing my dissertation (especially towards the end), i've realised that it's the people you least expected to help who end up giving you the most assistance.

of course, i am super thankful for nini and drew who went down to shopping malls to conduct the survey with me.

nn, remember how i actually almost fainted at eastpoint??!?! like WTF. and nn had to get me orange juice. thanks nn for saving me!

n i still remember i was actually pissed off w drew for can't-remember-what-reason (then i annoyingly refused to eat lunch "because i got no appetite) when we went parkway to conduct survey. i thought he was not going to bother about my survey anymore but he still helped me after all. HEE...

but what touches me most is that a friend whom i had misunderstandings with extended her help when i was confronted with difficulties.
i always felt like we will never go back to how we were back then...
however, she was willing to spare me one whole saturday to guide me on the usage of stupid SPSS to run my not-very-challenging data.
thank you, my friend.

and the one last person whom i feel so indebted to...
i can't really talk about this person here but anyway,
thank you very much, saviour!!
if it had not been for you, i would be so lost, confused and demoralised.

can never thank the both of you enough.

before i go,

Glyn-san!! (you wouldnt be reading this within this period but,) JIAYOU~
you zai-shit. still can't believe this girl. really can come out with stuff during the last minute.
i would have panicked and died.

after march 4, let's meet up, friends!
(or maybe after march 11... got Japanese 1 mid-term on 10th and another individual assignment due on 11th. HMM.)

alright, it's like 5.30am now (so late bcos i typed sth and decided i shldnt post after all).
GOODNIGHT~

2011-02-18T18:26:00.004+08:00

blogger should so have a reblog function like tumblr.

another amazing post taken from sunshine girl, sheena's blog. ((:

This one time I painted a living room with a girl.

This was a handful of years back. It was about eight months before the huge, flame-out of a breakup. That day, though? That day we painted the living room? It was pretty uneventful. We painted my parents living room for $50 between us and a pizza. That was it. I think we watched Anchorman or something after that.

But it still holds as one of the most indelible memories I have. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not still in love, it happened, it was good, it ended, and we’ve both moved on. But I’ll never forget that day. Because it’s never, in the long run, about the grand gestures. You can fly across the world and show up on her doorstep with a rose in your teeth and a ring in a little velvet box but I can guarantee you that - more often than not - she’s going to remember the time you built the birdhouse in the back yard, or what have you, a whole lot more.

Life wasn’t meant to be taken in large movements. The next day will inevitably arrive, you’ll sleep, and the moment will have passed. But when you have a hundred thousand small moments, you can step back and appreciate the picture a lot more than metaphorically blowing your load on some grand moment that, in all honesty, look, you’re not Bruce Fucking Springsteen, you’re not going to be able to blow everyone’s mind every single night. You’re not Romeo and/or Juliet. There’s no reason to drink the poison together in some flame-out gesture. So that leaves us with the small stuff. It’s all about the detail.

That’s what love is. Attention to detail.

And the moment will end. And then things will get boring. And it might get a little quiet. And it might all end horribly. And you might hate each other at the end. And you might walk away from each other one day and never speak again. But that’s just how it goes.

But she’ll remember the time you held the door open for her on your first date.

She’ll remember the time you laughed at her impression of the landlady.

She’ll remember the time you stayed up all night that first time.

She’ll remember the small things a lot longer than the big ones.

But everything ends. And I’ll tell you why you have to make the small things, the small moments count so much more:

One day, probably a while longer from now, when old age takes ahold of someone, she might just only remember your smile. Everything you ever did together, every second, every moment, every beat, every morning spent in bed, every evening spent together on the sofa, all of that - gone. Everything you ever did will be reduced to the head of a pin. She won’t remember your name. She’ll just remember your smile, and she’ll smile. She won’t know why. It’s a base, gut reaction. But she’ll smile, uncontrollably, and it will come from somewhere so deep as to know that you touched her on a primal, honest, and true level that no scientist, scholar, or savant could ever begin to explain. There is no more. There is nothing else. There is just this: She’ll remember your smile, and she’ll smile.

And you know what? That’s all that really matters in the end.

Source: nedhepburn

* * *

it's so true.
i can barely recall the last time i received flowers from you, or when we actually bothered to dress up and go on a date-date.

but i'll never forget all the little things you did for me, the silly comments you made and all the laughter and joy you brought into my life.

as long as i'm with you......

((:

2011-01-11T00:21:00.006+08:00

recently, i chanced upon a pretty old song from some old movie, dirty dancing.
and i LOVE it. =D
it's the kind of song you can play at your wedding! KEKE.
or maybe not...

anyway, i prefer the version by katie price and peter andre instead of the original one.

I'VE HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE

Now I've had the time of my life
No I never felt like this before
Yes I swear it's the truth
and I owe it all to you

'Cause I've had the time of my life
and I owe it all to you

I've been waiting for so long
Now I've finally found someone
To stand by me

We saw the writing on the wall
As we felt this magical fantasy

Now with passion in our eyes
There's no way we could disguise it secretly
So we take each other's hand
'Cause we seem to understand the urgency

Just remember

You're the one thing

I can't get enough of

So I'll tell you something

This could be love because

(CHORUS)
I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before
Yes I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you

With my body and soul
I want you more than you'll ever know

So we'll just let it go
Don't be afraid to lose control

Yes I know whats on your mind
When you say:
"Stay with me tonight."

Just remember
You're the one thing

I can't get enough of

So I'll tell you something

This could be love because

(CHORUS)
I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before
Yes I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you

Now I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before

(Never Felt this way)

Yes I swear it's the truth
and I owe it all to you

go listen to it if you haven't!!
there's this "love is in the air" dreamy erm, touch to it~
haha.

* * *
you're the one thing i can't get enough of...
((:

2011-01-09T21:22:00.021+08:00

sis was asking me what do i want for my birthday...
gosh, i'm turning 23 already! the age thing never bothered me, until... this year?
i dont know why.
could be that i'm gonna graduate from university and enter work life this year.
it could also be that boyfriend's 22nd was only last month yet my 23rd is round the corner.
or perhaps, it's the hair perm! it kinda makes me feel OLD. i need shorter fringe!

anyways, decided to come out with a birthday wish list.
in case some of you want to know. =P

NEEDS

~~1. a good hair dryer with diffuser (that big head thing for curls/permed hair)~~ 2. angbao! (need to stock up maple clinic stuff and erm, contribute to graduation trip fund)

~~3. blusher (no special preference as to what brand but must come with a brush!)~~

~~4. ettusais waterproof pencil eyeliner~~

~~5. l'oreal lash boosting serum (since i started putting mascara again, my lashes are balding! and i heard pretty awesome reviews about this serum!!)~~

6. backpack bag for school (nice enough to be carried to school despite wearing dresses/skirts etc)! my japanese textbooks/workbooks and course pack are so heavy!

WANTS

1. clothes/vouchers (which girl will complain that they have too many clothes or that they don't enjoy retail therapy!)

2. wallet (actually it doesn't need to be from kate spade, just something i will probably use for a few years~)

LUSTS

1. ray ban wayfarer (perhaps not red, tortoise shell would be easier to match...)
by the way, anyone's looking for ray bans, oakleys or maui jim sunglasses,
can check out Define Happiness at http://www.DHsunglass.com
the website's not up yet but there's the link to the FB page. (:

2. kate spade stevie bag (can be of any colour/prints but i like the stevie shape one!)

3. tiffany & co. bow necklace

alright, it's more or less that. the last section on LUSTS is not so relevant, but anything from the NEEDS and WANTS is very welcomed!
priority given to NEEDS. so don't feel pressurised at all. =D

thank you all in advance!! hehe.
love love~

2011-01-03T14:34:00.007+08:00

Happy 2011, everyone~

as usual, another year has gone by so quickly.
december flashed by too.
school is starting in another few more days, and i felt like i havent enjoyed enough this last holiday as a student. :(
didnt seen enough of the people i would love to spend more time together with.

2011 is gonna be a significant year for me, moving from being a student to the working life.
am excited yet equally worried and terrified actually.
i am still so clueless about my "future".

am not going to make any resolution this year. seems like i usually forget about them a week into the new year or something. haha.

most importantly now is for me to finally finally stop procrastinating and start on the dreadful dissertation!! am super guilty now but guess i can only channel that guilt into motivation to work harder.

* * *

something from dear sheena's blog caught my attention recently, so i'm sharing this here:

The Paradox Of Our Time

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers;
wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less;
we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families;
more conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense;
more knowledge, but less judgment;
more experts, yet more problems;
more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We've added years to life not life to years.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.

We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we we have less communication.
We've become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion;
big men and small character;
steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.

These are the days of two incomes but more divorce;
fancier houses but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom and little in our heart's room.

A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

* * *

can't agree more.

let 2011 be an even greater year for everyone~

2010-12-20T17:38:00.002+08:00

2010 is coming to an end...

gotten a new planner, new phone and new hair.
so, i sometimes actually like changes! (:
hopefully 2011 is going to be an even greater year!

my new favourite colour ((:
and i think i kinda see this colour EVERYWHERE nowadays.
including my nails =D

and that's my curls at its best. hope i can style the curls as well as the hairstylist.
RAHHS. on some days, my hair annoys me very much. and i've "invested" so much on it already. it'd better stay good! oh wells.

tatas.

2010-12-17T20:10:00.002+08:00

bestest best boyfriend EVER!!

thank you for...

- waiting 4 hours for me while i get my hair permed
- tolerating my whining the WHOLE of the next day (even when it's your birthday) because the perm wasn't what i had expected and i had been paranoid and conscious the whole time!
- buying me my iphone 4!! =D and then going around everywhere in search of my "perfect" phone casing
- returning to the hair salon with me to seek help for my "dying" curls
- shopping for hair products/nail polish with me (:

and many many more.

i love you, dear!!

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you, mid-december baby!

2010-12-09T00:44:00.003+08:00

currently hooked on tumblr.
love all the nice photos and quotes. ((:

http://megawattsmile.tumblr.com

2010-11-25T12:45:00.003+08:00

one stormy day, girl and boy were walking on the streets.
there were loud thunders and lightnings kept flashing across the sky...

girl: dear, i'm scared... you must protect me!!
boy: how? i'm not a lightning rod. HAHAHAHAHA.

asshole.

=P

honestly, it doesnt even feels like it's exam period anymore.
i even spared a few hours to go shopping for ah boy's birthday present with sis yesterday.
and there's gonna be BBQ at ECP this sunday.

hmmm.

off to try to study again~

december!!

2010-11-20T15:55:00.008+08:00

"I feel like people get lost when they think of happiness as a destination.
We’re always thinking that someday we’ll be happy.
You know, we’ll get that car or that job or that person in our lives that’ll fix everything.
But happiness is a mood, and it’s a condition, it’s not a destination.
It’s like being tired or hungry; it’s not permanent, it comes and goes, and that’s okay.
And I feel like if people thought of it that way, they’d find happiness a lot more often."

— One Tree Hill

credits: http://runawaytrain.tumblr.com/

i hope you'll stop being so angsty.
it's okay to grumble and complain.
but it's not okay to vent your frustrations on everybody.
or, go missing.

hope you find peace and happiness.

((:

* * *
i blog most during study break/exam period. WOWS.

i'm a monster. i finished half a bottle of 1L milk and half a (big) packet of koko krunch in TWO days. not eaten for breakfast. but as snacks. eeeews... (to think i thought i was ALMOST anorexic or bulimic. sads.)

reminder to self: stock up on meiji LOW FAT milk and more kiddy cereals to last me through the exam period. =D

2010-11-18T23:36:00.007+08:00

this is an entry dedicated to my beloved mommy. =D (because she helps alter my clothes. hehe.)

some time back, i bought a dress from loveandbravery.com BECAUSE andrew said the dress is nice (when i was seeking opinions on another mint dress in the same collection, which i didnt buy then and then regretted and finally found it somewhere else.)

ANYWAYS, i thought it looked OKAY on the model, and since boyfriend likes it... being those loserish girlfriends who want to make their boyfriends happy, i bought it.

okay, it looks a little big on the model without belt, but i thought since all blogshop models are stick-thin and i am definitely bigger than them, it should fit me nicely...

when it finally arrived. TMD! it was HORRIBLE. mad horrible. it's Fugly (with a capital F).
it was actually super loose and big on me, which i, like the model, tried to make it nicer using a belt. but still, NO USE!!

(dont mind that sticky patch on my head) i looked like CRAP. damn gross! and i was depressed over it for so many days. (because, because i bought this dress, i missed out that mint dress. and, still money right!!)

and then me and glyn started calling it THE MICHELIN DRESS. haha.

although i was depressed, i didnt give up hope, trying to find ways of how i can get that dress altered so it's at least wearable. better than hide it in my wardrobe.

so one day, i found this on yinagoh's blog. one of the owners of thevelvetdolls (i think).

WOOTS. IDEA!!

so i showed this to mommy. then!! mommy asked me for a sleeveless dress in my wardrobe. while watching taiwan hurricane or whatever that drama is called, she started cutting up that fugly dress and turned it into...

THIS!!! taadaa!!!

hehe. i am so happy now. though i still prefer the mint dress i finally found from another blogshop (though loveandbravery.com is actually having backorder for this dress now)...

i will try to love the white dress more, since mama went through so much to produce that for me!! =D and erm, i accidentally elbowed her face when she was looking at the dress when i was trying it.

thank you, mommy!! and sorry about that orh-bak-kak on our cheek!! lovelove~

p.s.: okay, i will STOP buying clothes, especially online. BYE!

2010-11-18T17:05:00.004+08:00

i might actually be anorexic or bulimic. YAY!

was complaining to glyn and andrew about how i have put on 1 or 2 kg lately,
while chewing on my sandwich (what's new?).

ended up throwing away a quarter of that sandwich and then spitting out what was in my mouth because i felt so grossed out by my weight gain and roundish tummy. :((

am gonna go jogging at least twice a week with andrew after exams.
erm, yaya, said this so many times but it never really did happen.
more like, twice a month. haha.

boohoo.

am getting FAT. eeews.

on a side note, motivation, where are you??
it's always a problem for me - to stay awake and concentrate on studying for the exam. :((
no wonder i got condemned. then again, it's MY problem, right??

and i realise i havent been blogging properly, since almost forever.
did i actually blogged about taiwan? or vietnam? or like whoever's birthday?? hmmm.

after my exam, i am going to blog more decent entries. i look back at some entries and i feel so embarrassed by them. am deeply inspired by my favourite lecturer's blog.

and YAY, tan yi-rritating is back!!

it was a rather short meet-up but it's great to have our full house again.
need to meet up with the rest in december too! ((:

wish it's December now!!

2010-11-13T16:46:00.003+08:00

instead of
"why are you so unreasonable and difficult to please?!"

it's
"did you have a bad day at school or is it that you're just very hungry?"

((:

and i guess i got to admit i get pretty cranky and annoying when i'm super hungry.
it's so embarrassing when i start to tremble and feel all faint-ish,
just because i havent eaten in 7 hours.

thank you, and i love you.

2010-10-30T15:40:00.007+08:00

got a wonderful surprise when i opened my eyes this morning. ((:
and that made my day~

dear popped over my place this morning with kfc egg tarts while i was still in bed.
even mommy was surprised!

he planted a kiss on my face, while all i could think of is "damn it, do i have morning breath?!"

the only few times i had a surprise like this was new year 2008. he turned up with a/an (un-cute) little bear. =P

and when he made me angry one night (in 2008 - i know because my photos are saved and sorted according to year) and had turned up with a small bouquet of flowers the next morning. and it actually worked!! i wasnt angry anymore. not that i can remember what that argument was about. but oh wells, i'm that kind of loserish-girls who forgive at the sight of flowers/pleasant surprise. HAHA.

and all these were so long ago......

even though he's now sitting THERE, gaming on my brother's laptop,
while i'm seated HERE typing away on my laptop, doing projects and handling distractions (facebook and blogshops and blog-hopping), i'm still glad for his company.

it's SATURDAY after all right?! it was supposed to be partoh-day. :(

cant wait for this thursday to be over.
all projects would have been over (except for one project presentation on the 15th).
and i'll give myself a little break, go somewhere with loverboy, maybe?
we're definitely catching the last exorcism!!

and then it's back to mugging for the exams...

thank you for being the bestest boyfriend i could ever imagine having!!
(though there's always room for improvement....)

2010-10-24T17:47:00.004+08:00

If I Die Young - The Band Perry

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town says he'll, love my forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when your dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

* * *
currently on repeat mode. (:
may seem a little sad or morbid initially, singing about how "if i die young"...
but the song is actually very calming and soothing.

i seriously hate school.
i hate the projects, especially those which sadly, we've been stuck at forever or worse, not even started.

and i started to wonder... what if i die young (like now or something)...
haha. dont worry, i'm not suicidal.
it's just like, when you look at your to-do-list and all the deadlines,
you go, "can i like die NOW??"

tough times dont last, tough men do.
will always keep in mind that.

hang in there...

2010-10-09T15:44:00.007+08:00

finally a late friday night despite the workload in school getting heavier...

thursday was spent with glyn, jasmine and suzanne for glyn-love's 22nd.

happy birthday, darling!! (:

friday in school was so packed, i had no time for any meal the whole day (until dinner).
celebrated drew's mama's birthday together.
was like more than half an hour late due to massive jam (got a lift from jasmine's mom).
thankfully i wasnt condemned.

happy birthday, auntie!

went over to da ge's place for karaoke with cheryl after dinner.
nini had some dinner function at work while dee was STILL at work at almost 10. :(

if only the songs are more updated!!
sang a little bit, ate some magnum and reminisced our secondary school days,
talked about love, life and future.
cant believe we chatted till so freaking late/early.
my eyes were all red and i was dying.
hope we can have more nights like this, in december.
though cheryl will be spending her december in korea. :(

i feel quite suffocated writing down my to-do-list this week.
kinda regretted sleeping at 4am plus and waking up at 2pm plus, with aslight headache!!

and tomorrow, i'll be spending half the day at grandma's place for her birthday celebration too.

need to stop procrastinating. go do some work NOW!
ma tu liao!! BYE~

2010-10-03T01:21:00.001+08:00

Just The Way You Are

Her eyes, her eyes
make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

I know, I know
When I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see
But everytime she asks me "Do I look okay?"
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh
she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfects what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking if you look okay
'Cause you know I'll say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are

* * *
got this song stuck in my head.
it'd be so romantic if he sings this for you, and really mean it. ((:

2010-09-24T21:13:00.004+08:00

I WISH I HAVE A WEDDING OR SOME SORT OF EVENT TO ATTEND!!

AWW... this "Lipsy Loves Pixie Lott Chiffon Cut Out Babydoll Dress" i saw from ASOS website is so so super beautiful!! even the name of the dress is so cute!!

=D loves.

2010-09-21T21:42:00.008+08:00

havent been blogging and beloved jojo is asking for one. (:

two words to describe myself: plain lazy.

have been sleeping ALOT yet always feeling tired.
no idea why.

as i was sitting on my bed reading journals for my thesis (yea, i study in bed thus always end up falling asleep), i was thinking about how long it has been since i last spent quality time with the babes. it makes me kinda sad.

suddenly images of our odac days actually appeared in my head.
(of all memories, our odac days?! haha.)

i remembered how the "stronger two" encouraged and supported the other two of us when we went for the kayaking two-star course and had to swim 50m in the sea, with our life vest (THANKFULLY).

TMD paiseh, me and nini couldnt swim at all!!
we ended up screaming and whining. HAHA.
while paddling desperately with our hands and kicking like mad women with our legs.

dee and jo completed their 50m swim with the rest of the odacians while nini and i were like still... 30m away from them?
screaming and whining STILL.

anyways, dee and jo swam back to us and held our hands.
*touching music in the background while camera zooms in to the hands held together*

blah blah blah. we finally got there, all of us, together. (:

and also, i REFUSED to capsize TWO TIMES in order to pass the final round.
capsizing and then pulling the skirt off the kayak is like committing suicide for me.
so why would i want to?!?! i swear i could have died there.

anyways, to show their support, dee and jo capsized again and again with me (to show me it's really easy and you cant die from doing it) even after they were done with their test.
and of course, i had to do it so as not to let them and myself down. fortunately, i survived! haha.

we've been through so much together, it sometimes saddens me that we see so little of one another ever since i cant exactly pinpoint when.
nevertheless, you girls are my bestest best friends and lovely babes!!

i wanna thank you girls for always being there!! =D

and dee, congratulations for being able to work overseas like you wanted, even though it's only for 2 weeks. you're my miss independent!! but dont forget the importance of savings, yea?? until you find a loaded exotic husband who is generous with his money.

nn, congratulations on getting your first job!! we'll see how it goes. ;) nice colleagues make work worth looking forward to no matter how shitty the job gets. well, or at least i believe so. or advice number two, buy pretty office wear!! will feel happier too. HAHA.
and thanks for going eastpoint to conduct survey with me the other time!

jojo, i think students are busier than working adults!! haha. cos i see you the least. =P
meet up meet up meet up! with your mac and loaded photobooth~
excited to see a more DEMURE girl (or so you claim) after influences from your korean sister.

how we've changed......

realise we have no group photo for year 2010 except during my birthday. then jo left for korea. let's meet up soon and compensate for the lost months!! =D

definitely the loves of my life.

* * * * * * * * * *
can i add that......
this top from forever21 is super sweet and absolute chioness!!
i want one~
but nope, CANNOT buy any more clothes. :(
practise self-control...
wah... really love the details~

2010-08-12T19:41:00.004+08:00

if only i could just stay at home whole day reading amazing quotes.
it makes me happy.

"I wish everyone could experience true love;
the feeling of being so physically and emotionally wrapped around someone who treats you like your the most amazing thing in the world.
Someone who calls you back after they say goodbye because they just want to hear your voice again.
Someone who unexpectedly shows up at your house when you’re sick to give you roses and a feel-better kiss.
Someone who tells you they love you and that they will always be there and sticks to their word.
Someone who kisses you not only on your lips but on your nose, forehead, and cheek as well.
Someone who sees you as a real person with real feelings and not as a sex object.
Someone who runs up to you, picks you up and spins you around.
Someone who grabs your hand, looks into your eyes and says “I want to be with you for the rest of my life”.
Someone who can give you butterflies just by touching your hand.
Someone who loves you for who you are."

LOVELY.
((:

* * *
know you're gonna be busy for the next two weeks and then it'll be my turn to be real busy.
hang in there!
i love you, dear~
and i miss you.

2010-08-01T15:47:00.006+08:00

recently, i've been spending my free time reading up lovely quotes (all thanks to shayne!).
and this has got to be one of my favourites so far (though there are ALOT of short and sweet ones which i will share here and there in future~).

"Every girl needs a man;
the kind that will treat you, as well as others, right;
the kind that has enough respect for himself, family, and others;
the kind that will change for you to just be with you.

The kind that searches for you with his heart,
the kind that can be trusted alone in a room full of many other beautiful ladies,
the kind that won’t cheat on you cause he knows he’s got all he wants and needs,
the kind that’s willing to be your friend and lover,
the kind that doesn’t mind calling early in the morning to say good morning and late at night to say good night;
maybe even sing you a good morning and tell you a good night story or talk to you until you fall asleep.

The kind that will do anything for you, even if it’s just to buy your favorite kind of candy.
The kind that will defend and fight for you,
the kind that won’t ditch you for his friends when you need him the most,
the kind that won’t leave you lonely and wondering.

The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around and tell them, “She’s the one.”
The kind that appreciates you for the things to do for him, even if they’re small gestures.
The kind that actually thanks you for the little love notes you leave him,
the kind that is willing to wait for you when you’re falling behind,
the kind that will actually open the door for you, take you out on dates once in a while and buy you flowers cause it’s a Wednesday.

The kind that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him,
the kind that reminds you that he loves you and that he’s happy with you in case you forget.
The kind that kisses your forehead when you’re down,
the kind that tells you to be strong and not to cry,
the kind that will go through thick and thin with, and for you,
the kind that just loves you for who you are.

That kind of man, that’s the kind you keep."

LOVE it. ((:

2010-07-21T13:51:00.003+08:00

am in love with this smart quote:

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.

i am so horrible.
i need to STOP.
because i cant afford this anymore.

need help.

new semester is coming.
love it and hate it.

2010-07-19T22:29:00.011+08:00

HOLA~

what have i been up to lately?
earning money by doing something i really dread doing.
thankfully i've got jasmine with me!!
honestly, i feel like i am WASTING my time and life away making cold calls.
then again, FOR THE MONEY!
so happy and excited when our supervisor told us today that we'll be getting our pay on our last day of work. YAY. no need to wait till the next month or something.
just in time for me to spend that pay in taiwan~

anyway, finally visited somewhere nice on a lazy sunday morning.
read about Arbite on 8days and thus decided to check it out with the lovelies.

happy belated 22nd, jasmine!! love you, sweetie~

i REALLY wanna watch Despicable Me but there was only first row left. so off to glyn's place we went.
PUDDING love!! i really miss and love her. she made me overcome my fear for dogs~ super adorable even though she loves to upskirt us and like erm, hump on my leg. naughty puppy. got punished by glyn because of that. SORWIE love~

5 months passed by so quickly. cheryl is coming back soon!! =D
next up, congratulations dear dee heng on your graduation! i hope you love and enjoy whatever you're doing. you need a big hug from moklove and many muacks~

lastly, i am going to miss our dear YY when he's away in China. :( come back fast!

this bunch of people makes me wish i live along the purple line. ((:

LOVE IS IN THE AIR lately. =D

2010-07-02T23:44:00.003+08:00

am probably gonna replace all my "freaking" with "super" when i'm excited about something (but not when i'm pissed off though).

to a more refined me. JIAYOU. (:

2010-07-02T00:38:00.003+08:00

to people i love and care for, please take some time to read it and be inspired. ((:

(once again, kop-ed from sheena who kop-ed from lynn. =P)

Written by Adrian Tan, author of The Teenage Textbook (1988), was the guest-of-honour at a recent NTU convocation ceremony. This was his speech to the graduating class of 2008.
—–

I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.
You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan “Arbeit macht frei” was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

2010-06-30T16:55:00.008+08:00

IN THE MOOD TO WHINE AND GRUMBLE (dont read it if you cannot stand whiny girls):

that day i was out doing some window shopping in orchard with boyfriend.
reminded self NOT to buy ANYTHING.
i'm glad i didnt.
though i ALMOST spent $79 on a blazer.
thanks dear for stopping me.
though i am very jealous that he spent $116+ in ONE shop buying a jacket (oooh. i like that jacket!), a pair of berms (nice too!), a polo tee and two pairs of briefs.
why like that?
why does GSS seems not to exist in places i wanna buy things yet it's like freaking 60% discount at celio where andrew bought his things.

it's so freaking unfair. his jacket was originally $139 or something and he only paid $50 over while that stupid blazer in new look is still $79 during GSS. tsk.

so close to getting it, but since it's white instead of black, maybe not!!
but the cut is super flattering on me!! RAHH. pardon my sian diao face in the picture cos andrew was taking so long to snap.

so, i endured many days of not buying anything, until today!

went to the robinson sales at expo with sister this morning.
bought a la senza bra for only 10 bucks!!! =D ALL la senza bras going for only $10.
and a pair of bohemian/egyptian style ear rings for only 5 bucks! - like it very much~
and a small adidas sling bag for $29.90.
was contemplating for so long as to whether or not to buy that bag.
because i realise i do not have a decent bag with zip so that i can feel safe keeping my passport and money in the bag when i go overseas (august is coming... TAIWAN!).
sis, andrew (mms-ed him) and i concluded that it'll come in really handy for all my taiwan trip etc.

boohoo. am regretting a little now...
perhaps i actually dont need that bag. RAHHH.
impulse. starved for too long.

papa just came into my room and showed me my phone bills for june.
tmd. $50 plus lor. usually only $30 plus. :(
mama was the one who kept calling when i was in vietnam lor (even though i kept assuring her we're really safe and she doesnt need to call every night - i KNOW she cares)... then now wanna make me pay... so unfair~
and omg, didnt know they charge for missed calls too!! like the ring ring part which takes up a few seconds are charged too!! wah lao. cheat money lor.
oh yes. and the day we went JB.
we were already out in singapore but the stupid phone is on some maxi server and i got charged overseas rate. tmd. thankfully only a dollar or so.
BOOHOO. and glyn!! i owe you 2 or 3 sms-es. =D

staring at the bag now, i wanna slap myself.
NO. i will carry it to work on saturdays...
i will carry it to batam, taiwan and everywhere else.
perhaps i should carry it out tomorrow for badminton with the s21 peeps.
YES. i will carry it till it's worth my $29.90.

thankfully i am giving relief tuition class(es) on sundays though only a few for now.

so now, i need to either earn more or stop spending.
yay. government giving $200 tomorrow. seems so little now but better than nothing.
june pay coming in too. YAYS.
but that is only enough for my tickets to taiwan which i owed my cousin.

major BOOHOO.

TATA. shall go do my summer programme project to distract self from my current financial situation. hate to feel like i'm in debt.

need a sugar daddy badly please.

2010-06-16T21:51:00.003+08:00

AH LONG GE IS BACK!! haha. long hui is back from Norwich. scholarship for him thus free dinner for us!! haha. though we all insisted on paying him part of it back. =x

he hasnt change abit. HAHA. still as arrogant and as annoying as ever. but that's what we like about him isnt it?? *chants the TUNNEL!!

and our favourite princess baby jenn came along too. by now, she has started"talking" to herself more. dont know what's she saying but still so very cute!! before i get a baby of my own in future, i will need to lift weights to train up my flabby weak arms.

GROUP PHOTO~ i insist we take at least one group photo each time we meet up. and we can also see how much jenn has grown. (:

* * *
went for a simple tuition job interview with glyn and jasmine this evening.
glyn left in a hurry due to work. :(
had scoopz ice cream and then dinner at YO~Shinoya with jasmine.

cam-whoring a little with baby's camera since it's with me today. =D
now i think photos taken with my own camera looks like CRAP. :(

jasmine's gonna cut her hair SHORT tomorrow!! but i wont be able to see it.

glyn dear will be flying off to taiwan this sunday for 2 weeks.
and then dear minmin will be off to australia this sunday till july too.

shall make do with a photo taken using glyn's olympus pen the other day!! =D

oh man. two of my favourite girls down. :(
come back quick, lovelies! gonna miss you both.
enjoy your holidays and i'll see you girls in JULY!

in the meantime, i really need to work on my 20-page journal report which is due on monday.
and then i should really start on literature review for my dissertation and also the summer programme project.

happy holidays to me. =/

2010-06-14T20:43:00.006+08:00

if you're feeling upset or down and you cant find anyone to talk to,
read sheena's blog. (: it kinda help bring a smile to my face, most of the time.

the following is so damn true!!

READING BETWEEN HER LINES

1 “Nothing…”

What she’s really thinking:
You’ve been an idiot and you’d better say sorry before I walk out. “Nothing” is most commonly used after she starts sulking. Quite obviously, something must be very wrong.

What you should do:
Find an appropriate time, preferably after she has cooled down, to coax her into talking. By initiating a discussion, it shows that you notice her unhappiness and want to hear her out.

2 “I’m perfectly ﬁne when you ogle at other girls in front of me.”

What she’s really thinking:
Stare more and I’ll make sure there’s no dinner tonight. This may be a warning or a sarcastic remark, depending on her tone and body language.

What you should do:
Be attentive and sensitive to your partner’s tone, non-verbal cues, facial expressions and gestures as they indicate if her statement is meant as it is – that it is ok to look; or as a sarcastic remark – in an angry tone with a stare. Notice the “whole package” to decipher.

3 “I’m ﬁne.”

What she’s really thinking:
You’d better know what’s wrong and ﬁx it before you get hell from me.

What you should do: If she says this, she is deﬁnitely not ﬁne and you need to ﬁnd out where the problem is. They are very likely to be pissed or hurt for something you probably don’t even know you did. Your best bet is to try and talk it out with her and ﬁnd out exactly what’s on her mind.

4 “Leave me alone.”

What she’s really thinking:
Something is wrong and I need to talk it out. I need your comfort.

What you should do:
This one is tricky, because most of the time she wants you to do the opposite although sometimes she really means to leave her alone. Be sensitive and try asking her in a concerned tone to ﬁnd out what is causing her to be upset. If she doesn’t want to talk about it, just give her a hug. Whatever you do, don’t leave her alone.

5 “Sure, go ahead.”

What she’s really thinking:
Going out for drinks again! I don’t want you to go.

What you should do:
Ask yourself if you’ve been going out too often. If you have, take the initiative to turn down the appointment if you sense she’s unhappy. If you really have to go, offer to take her along or make it up by suggesting doing something she likes the next day.

* * *
when it was okay already, i have to go screw it up AGAIN.
trust me, how good am i at screwing things up.

i know i should stop blaming emo-bugs or pms.
because at the end of the day, i realise the source of issues could just be ME.
it had always been there and it's finally coming out.

good luck.

2010-06-09T00:47:00.006+08:00

was chatting with vincent over msn about my internship...

oh man!!

the horror of going to a new place, ALONE.
what if nobody asks me to lunch together?!!
wah lao. damn loser-ish.
am going to plant boyfriend, friends, whoever around near my workplace in case that happens.

honestly, i dont even know when is my lunch time.
what is my exact job scope?
what are my working hours?
what is my reimbursement?
who is my supervisor? who do i report to?
yaadaa...

am (im)patiently waiting for that important email.
if i still dont get it by tomorrow, i'm calling again!

chatted with mark and dee in the afternoon...
:(

as childish and loser-ish as it may sound,
i dont want to grow up!!

damn work life.
dearest babe, hang in there.
rest whenever you can. hope to meet up soon.
when you are finally let off. :(

* * *
on a side note, met drewlove after his work for dinner.
i actually bothered to dress up today even though it was only for an evening.
was feeling so lazy to go out at 6pm (and it's like after the cooling rain)!
stupid boy didnt seem very impressed. TSK. =P

anyway, long john silver sawadee chicken is YUMMY!!
definitely eating it again before it's gone!

bought two basic tops from zara for work.
somehow i wasnt very excited about it.
perhaps because it has got to do with work. :(
or maybe it's because it's money out again.

dear is buying pedro loafers. hehe.
i think hot guys should wear nice shoes!
time to slowly do away with your pumas.

eh, i really think i NEED a bag for work lor.
SERIOUS. =/

* * *
i really really wish and hope it's not a bad choice.
there is still time to back out,
but i dont want to give up even before trying.

please let it be a fun, nice and good experience...

* * *
and i thought this was cute:

女人，
漂亮的不会下厨，
下厨的不温柔，
温柔的没主见，
有主见的没女人味，
有女人味的乱花钱，
不乱花钱的不会打扮，
会打扮的不放心，
放心的不能看。

((: cheered up a little.

2010-06-07T22:21:00.005+08:00

okay. so i officially got the internship, I THINK.
lots of hiccups in between.
will be starting next week, hopefully.
though i secretly wish otherwise.

major sianness.

that feeling of you wanting something badly, yet when you finally got it, you dont really want it anymore. perhaps the reason why you were excited about it initially is now gone. GLYN!! :(

many things to do this holiday plus my internship plus aps on saturdays. WOW.
suddenly am regretting a little. but must keep telling self (according to jasmine), many people want it yet couldnt get it. gain the experience! enhance your resume~

things to complete this holiday:
- journals (20 pages excluding pictures)
- summer programme project
- dissertation (to settle on topic and conduct survey)
- save money for taiwan trip!! and then my iphone. RARR.
(means no more shopping!! stop me, people. whatever it takes.)

although only a few things on the list, it's quite very enough to kill me, i guess.
since i only have sunday as free day. :(

am feeling slightly depressed instead of being excited after receiving that call today.
the kind of depress you feel like crying to yourself. damn dumb.

you can do it, mokie. hang in there!!

something to cheer myself up and be excited about...

i've decided to keep my hair for another 6 months before perming it!! =D new look~

the fake curls i gave myself after tying my hair in a bun for one entire day.
glyn, joelynn and i got so excited about it (in hcmc). haha.

i want this kind of perm!! not sure if i will look good in it though. oh well. i gotta be patient. SIX more (long) months!

think happy thoughts...

2010-05-31T02:35:00.011+08:00

i fired my first two bullets using an M16 yesterday!! damn exciting la~
will definitely try shooting (more the next time) when the chance arises again.

and we crawled the cu chi tunnel.
kinda claustrophobic feeling sweating out like a pig.
but still it was so much fun!!
sadly, i ended up looking horrendously cui in most of the photos.

left ho chi minh and reached hanoi this morning.
glyn and i miss the "modernity" of ho chi minh.
our hotel in hanoi is like not even worth taking pictures. :(

but i must admit the night market in hanoi is WAY better and got "scenic views"!

we love the ho hoan kiem lake!!

if only we have more time in hanoi (in some other/better hotel!)...
will take our time to walk through the THIRTY SIX STREETS and go to parks and even beaches. cant wait for halong bay now!!

by the way, "acacia" keeps on appearing (twice in a week) recently!!

it must then be a good name for my future daughter!! =P

anyway, me and glyn bought a duffle bag each in the hanoi night market (36 streets) to carry home COFFEE and snacks. no clothes or anything nice. :(
we were laughing madly when i found out my bag has its button engraved with "D&G" and then we laughed even hardly when glyn saw hers with "LV" on it. lol. we are so damn easily tickled.

before i go, NN, this is for you,

didnt know your boyfriend doing some fake branded bags business. HEE.

4 hours left before i need to get up. -_-"
less than 6 hours of sleep nightly...

GOODNIGHT everyone~

2010-05-27T02:35:00.006+08:00

xin chao~
having a fun time in HO CHI MINH CITY!!
even though it is only day 2 and i do not appreciate the spring roll here.
pho is fine. coffee is love.
zi char dinner tonight was YUM~

too tired to blog now.
will do so the next few night IF we head back early and i am not tired.

just wanna exclaim a few things here.

1. i LOVE LOVE LOVE my nail colour!! for only 11 usd. manicure and pedicure. same cherry/bloody RED. =D

gotta try the massage when the blisters on my feet go away.

2. vietnam does not support facebook. so to those who sms-ed me to wish me bon voyage (too late) and so on but i didnt reply cos i was already in vietnam (60 cents one sms lor...), THANK YOU!! hehe.

3. to my beloved boyfriend: sorry if i return to the hotel late and am unable to chat with you on msn. thank you for staying up to wait for me!! i miss you and love you too. take care please.

4. markie, jin hui and andrew (yes, you again), enjoy your genting trip boys!! take care of the new camera HOR~

5. joo: yes yes, we'll meet up SOON (60 cents per sms means alot to me), when i return from vietnam okay. feel free to set up an event on fb for a 6H gathering. ask amy when will she be flying back. i cant fb but i WILL attend the event. try to make it dinner. if it's on a saturday, i can only make it after 8pm due to work. thanks~

6. everybody else, take care and we'll meet up when i'm back!! by the way, vietnam is NO shopping haven. yet to find nice souvenirs. unable to decided which coffee is considered good. vietnam tees are rather cute but quality so-so! :( hope to find something nice soon!

a little sneak preview of ho chi minh city here:

with my project group mates outside some cathedral... had a nice/ugly jumpshot there (to post ot not to post??). =D

crossing roads here will seem really dangerous and scary to foreigners, but i am getting pretty good at it...

you dont need to go korea to find lotte mart. hee. jojo, I FEEL YOU.

SEVEN more days to go...

2010-05-22T22:44:00.008+08:00

i am so happy and excited.
it's as if i got a new camera myself.
=D
baby just got his canon s90!! WAHAHA.
was hoping he would get GF1 though, but we concluded it is too expensive and we kinda dont need such a pro-camera. (i concluded i have bad photography skills the day we went MBS)

he still think it was an impulse purchase.
(sales, friendly techinician/salesperson, "last 3 left" etc)
oh wells. i can help you fully utilise it!!
if you were to allow me to bring it to vietnam. =P
but then again, might be a quite stressful for me too.
so it's FINE.

lalala~

shall snap snap snap when i'm back okay!! love you~

* * *
i have a wonderful uncle. ((:

he's going hongkong for holiday tomorrow and he sms-ed to ask if i want anything from there.
so now, he's gonna get me perfume, food and hopefully more. lalala~

keke. usually people who ask me if i want anything, would end up regretting having asked me that. LOL.

classic example: andrew asked if i needed anything for my vietnam trip. *nods head profusely* yes, i NEED clothes! =D

so there, my new dress from dorothy perkins.

thanks love!!

* * *
i miss our beloved jojo so much.

how fast are we growing up!!
gone were the days where we were so FREE and slackish during summer holidays~
love and miss you babes~
till we meet again.
all the best for your job search!

2010-05-21T19:48:00.002+08:00

happy day ((:

2010-05-18T22:49:00.005+08:00

it's been a while since i last blogged!!
have been feeling pretty lazy lately.

let me recap what have i been doing after exams...

whole of last week was occupied by summer programme lectures and project discussions.

suz's birthday dinner@illuma, dessert@ah chew's, tea@haji lane plus our first time on the circle line!!

papa's birthday dinner@pu tien. first time there. YUMS. definitely going back again!

met up with jac, mark and jin hui on sunday for brunch@wild honey which ended up being lunch@ippudo. CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR GRADUATION, JACLOVE!

played nightingale for a day. (: YOU get well soon, Mr. Ox

airport night loving with the usuals. you know who you are. ;) it's ALWAYS lots of madness and laughter.

FINALLY watched ip man 2. thanks sweetie for watching it with me despite having watched it already. and for being patient and running about to stock up my maple stuff. love you!

going shopping with glyn and jasmine tomorrow. YAY! am so deprived of QUALITY shopping time!! haha. but i already bought 3 dresses online within 2 days, spent a hundred on maple stuff, a few more hundreds on vietnam and insurance plus everlast shoes. omg. i dont want to think. and that means that i should not be spending tomorrow?? :(

am finally gonna meet 2/3 of my babes the day after tomorrow!! =D the last proper meet-up was like more than a month ago la!! so sad. school has separated us for so long~

so much to do before my vietnam trip!! but seems like i dont have much time left. and when i'm back, gonna be busy like mad!

RAHH.

i love all of you. ((:

2010-05-07T01:59:00.000+08:00

exams are over!!!!!

things are only going to get better. ((:

2010-05-02T20:49:00.004+08:00

one of my favourite songs:

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

I don't want to lose you
I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

That don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
Do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
'Cause Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

2010-05-02T14:04:00.005+08:00

i always thought i'll remain strong when faced with something like that.

but no, i'm not strong at all.
hate to admit my weaknesses and flaws.
but it's the fact. i'm seriously flawed.

in need of better anger management.
but it's so hard to come to terms with myself.
i'm so weak, i cant control my emotions.

thought you'd be different.
perhaps i got out of hand.

and as much as i hate to admit,
there might actually be something i cannot live without.

but i'm not gonna let that be the case.

how would it be like from now on?

2010-05-01T00:24:00.006+08:00

the guilt is now slowly setting in...
so much so for "relieving" oneself.

shouts, WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING TODAY??

lunched at MOS burger with glyn dear after the 2-hour gender studies paper which felt like FOREVER.
i was so bored writing my answers, i kept staring out at the window, watching the vehicles go by.

watched iron man 2 with loverboy. ((:
mad queue. freaking 30 minutes of waiting!!
pissed off with secondary school boys who stood too close for my comfort.

drew went for his haircut with "my favourite korkor". =D
have i ever mentioned on my blog that i really like andrew's hairstylist??
he's damn funny even though he speaks mandarin with malaysian accent.
and he's nice and professional. quite cute looking etc.
and i am so amused that he calls ip man, I-P-Man.
LOL. so wanted to correct him but i dont wanna appear MEAN.

baby looks different with his new hairstyle. =/
but still HOT okay? me love. haha.

back home.
i magic-cleaned my room and my parents' room!!
feel damn bad cos i drop my hair EVERYWHERE.
and then i changed my bedsheets.
that is alot of work. trust me.
one queen size bed, another single bed,
2 bolsters, 3 pillows and 3 more little non-smelly smelly bolsters.

bought one skirt for work from f21 online just now.
helped glyn with two pieces of clothing as well.

gonna sleep well tonight.
gonna stop feeling guilty for having so much fun today.

am going to STUDY HARD TOMORROW!!
yes, i can do it. i MUST do it.

go go!!

2 more papers to go...

* * *
me: would you rather carry 3 kg of cotton wool or 3 kg of steel??
himbo aw: of course cotton wool la!!! *give duh face*
me: HAHAHA!

still wanna argue about whether i'm talking about MASS or WEIGHT here.
whatever~

and i still havent gotten over the north korea joke, baby!

cant help smiling silly to myself recalling all your himbo-tic moments. =D

love.

2010-04-24T19:24:00.004+08:00

something really funny cheered me up.

baby came over this morning in his super lok kok GREEN pants and some dri-fit tee.
we were supposed to go jogging but my cramps persisted till third day. :(

so anyway, he was leaving after lunch to meet his mom at TM for some shopping.
i was BEGGING him to change out of that sickening pants which i freaking hate but he REFUSED.

you know, sometimes you look at your boyfriend and wonder,
"WHY THE HELL did he wear that?" or even worse, like one of my bffs,
you go like, "OMG. is that MY boyfriend?!?!"

okay fine, maybe your boyfriend is forever handsome in your eyes.
maybe we're just superficial people.

so anyway, i justified my stand by saying,
"you never know who you'll bump into!! you wouldnt want to be caught in THAT pants, SERIOUSLY."

being the stubborn guy, he left my house in that fugly GREEN pants. LOL.

and now, he's telling me on msn he bumped into his female friend, who was with her boyfriend.
HAHA. orbi-good.
i almost shouted, "TOLD CHA!!!" at my laptop at that instant.

somehow, i find the whole thing really hilarious.
cannot stop picturing him in THAT pants while his friend is looking all chio and made-up with her probably-good-looking-boyfriend.

guess studying is just too boring so anything random like this can tickle me hell lot.

BYE now~

2010-04-20T11:24:00.006+08:00

i feel very very sad and stressed up.

i've been spending way too many days on valuation. :(
since sunday night, i've been dozing off at 11plus pm.
somehow i cant burn midnight oil anymore.
good thing is i manage to wake up at 7.30am to study.
sadly, i will doze off again. :( so actual studying starts at about 11am.

everyone's complaining how stress and stuff we are over exams during this period on fb or twitter whatsoever. and andrew commented "then why are you are still on fb??"

FINE.

probably that's the only channel we have to escape from the mountain of notes.

the past few semesters, i was able to finish reading through notes once and like going through the tutorials and stuff. but this time, time is not on my side. and i'm really depressed thinking about valuation and research methodology. :(

on a random note, i start to wonder...
why do i suddenly feel like i dont know my friends anymore??
like friends who were so close...
suddenly, we're hardly meeting up nor catching up with each others lives?
it's usually, "kk, gotta go study/do assignment! talk to you again!"
but we never did talk again.
or when you're asked something, you're expected to response.
but when you do ask something, you never really did get a response.

it's not like i'm blaming my friends, it's just the shitty school life.
or life here in general.

just ranting out my frustrations.

for all the people who are having exams now,
study hard and good luck.
cos "the harder you study, the luckier you get".

p.s.: Happy 22nd Birthday, Yin Joo! (: love you.

* * *
i am almost certain that i'm not gonna do well for exams this time.
this is very very depressing and demotivating. :(

2010-04-18T01:20:00.009+08:00

back from the chalet, showered and feeling very clean and sleepy.
love it when my hair feels cold.

love my little family. even though we might annoy each other TTM at times.

love favourite uncle and jiejie who missed the family photo because they went off to help buy more paper cups and plates.

love everyone in the photo. (: plus nurse pinky who came and left within an hour due to her shift at work plus our soon-to-be cousin-in-law who dropped her and left because the car park was full and there was a huge jam outside the chalet.

* * *
it suddenly dawned on me that
EXAMS.ARE.COMING!

rahh.
please please please, dont NOT fall asleep nor get distracted from tomorrow onwards.
even if you have to pee coffee, you need to stay focused!
i hope tomorrow is not too late. :(

sleepy now.

* * *
i want to thank you for
EVERY.SINGLE.LITTLE.THING.

p.s.: i know i look fuglishly fat in this photo. :(

be it
-calling up my mom to confirm help needed before the chalet
-coming down early to carry bulky and heavy stuff
-letting me have the "only seat"
-buying 10kg of ice cubes
-one-man-show at the bbq pit
-helping with the distribution of cakes
(which i highly suspect it was because you were JEALOUS when two of my bro's male friends were helping me and laughing loudly cos i'm just too humourous for them =P)
-leaving later despite having things on early morning the next day

or for
-drinking/eating whatever i ordered yet is too "gross" for my liking
(sorry about the GROSS iced teh tarik!)
-buying me my weekly dosage of 8days
-offering wake-up-calls when i take afternoon naps
(though i hardly ever respond to your calls because i sleep like a log)
-giving in to my unreasonable requests
-really putting in effort to keep your promises
(even if it means changing yourself)
-sharing silly jokes and listening to ALL my grumbles and rants
-never failing to make my lousy days better
(unless you were the one who made my day lousy =P)

or simply for just
-holding my hand
-giving me bear hugs
-smelling my hair and then tell me i smell good
-pushing my hair away from my face
-kissing me on my forehead/nose unexpectedly
and so much more.

and all you ask of me is to be "faithful, truthful and forgetful".
i think i can do that. ((:
sorry for being too demanding and bitchy at times!!
but no promises that i will stop being that. =D

semper fidelis and i love you.

2010-04-16T22:02:00.004+08:00

instead of buying the zara bag, i bought a high-waist skirt from topshop today!!

freaking happy! =D

finally utilised my gift card.
the skirt cost $69. used glyn's f3 card, i only need to pay $2.10 for it. HEE.

taa daa~
had been WAITING for it to come to singapore topshop outlet!
ever since glyn got her khaki version one and i saw this navy one online, i kept hoping it'll come.
so it finally did and i got it! YAY.

but one sad thing is, one size bigger, it's not high-waisted anymore plus it's rather loose and pong pong-ish.
one size down and it's a little tight... but much more flattering.
so, yea, i got the smaller-size one.
shall motivate self to slim down~

lalala.

WHAT should i wear to brother's 21st chalet tomorrow?? =/

p.s.: almost forgot that there's WORK tomorrow!! until yy said, "see you tmr" then i realised. :(

2010-04-15T21:24:00.003+08:00

glyn dear dropped by zara and mms-ed me this.

ehs, somehow, the bag in black doesnt seem so very nice. :(
MAYBE the photo doesnt do the bag justice??
being such a dear again, glyn is accompanying me to vivo city after school tomorrow~

* * *
i concluded i am very rough.
i was aggressively scrubbing drew's laptop keyboard with a wet tissue...
and the "Caps Lock" key came off!!

omg omg omg!
panic attack!!

i started picturing dear boy giving me his "default" face, saying "never mind" in a tone that means anything but never mind then shoving me aside to attempt to fix it back blah blah blah~

THANK GOODNESS baby is like a living buddha!! hahaha.
i was spared!! =D
his reaction was unexpectedly laughters and a REAL "never mind".

sorry baby!! =*

he spent a long time trying to shove it back in with the help if a ruler. PHEW.

thank you for being so nice~
if i were you, i would have done what i have pictured you doing. LOL.
plus ignore you till you buy me a new laptop or something. =P

* * *
i enjoy cooking together. ((:
instant mee goreng
new moon bbq drumlets (YUMS!)
semi-instant chawanmushi (failed)

would prefer if you helped with the washing though. TSK.

love. (:

* * *
saturday will be bro's 21st birthday chalet.
(gonna whack many many more bbq chicken wings!!!)
so SUNDAY will be the official start of my exams revision!!!
go go go, jiayou~

2010-04-14T23:02:00.005+08:00

i think my idol, vincent, is damn funny.

* m o k_i e ❤s her foursome and AWesome says:
need any help w the project now?
www.VinCentCinDy.com says:
ehhh i'm not looking at the project now lol
* m o k_i e ❤s her foursome and AWesome says:
LOL okay no prob!!!
tmr i will be uncontactable though
hahahahaha
www.VinCentCinDy.com says:
shall go through tmr
what???
haha
i will go simei if i cant contact u
* m o k_i e ❤s her foursome and AWesome says:
u dunno my exact address!!
HAHA
www.VinCentCinDy.com says:
i will find traces of food...
haha

omg. i cannot believe that's the impression i leave everywhere i go!! LOL.
example:
i was late for meeting with supervisor this morning.
brought my red bean paste bread to school.
ate it at 11.15am.
went to buy lunch at 12.30pm.
suz asked, "didnt you just eat your bread?"
me, "er, that was breakfast??"

LOL.

plus the countless trips to macs for nuggets, cinnamon melts, fries.
ya kun milk tea, kaya toast, etc.
cai fan PLUS fish slice soup.
fish slice soup with extra veggies and extra fish.
minced pork noodles. mini-wok soup (extra crab-stick from glyn)!

gonna miss you all for THREE months now~ YAYs.

(i need to start dieting from NOW)

but anyway glad that project period is finally over!! (sort of)
no more camping and ta-bao-ing of food to seminar rooms.

YAY!!

ok, i shouldnt even be this happy. cos exams are round the corner and i'm like...... totally NOT prepared.
:(

oh man. JIAYOU all the loves! =D

2010-04-12T14:00:00.004+08:00

girls just cant resist pretty things.

saved my dearest bff's day (by transferring money over) and made her day. (:
O$P$ hor!!
you should really learn to SAVE MONEY!!
if i tell c-jo what happened, she is going to condemn you~
=P
but i must admit, i wont be able to resist this bag too. especially if i have $20 voucher.

anyway, because of her, i feel like buying this bag too!!!
even when i havent even seen the bag real life. omg.
but i always trust dee's taste. =D
but i would get the one in black, so i can use it for my internship. hehehe.
most of my current bags dont go with office wear. i think.

it's $59.90. yes, no?? YES?? no?
it's from ZARA by the way~

p.s.: i know i just got a new bag from mango. but it's DIFFERENT. this one doesnt fit A4 yet can contain your wallet, phone, a small water bottle, maybe even an umbrella??! and other necessities. perfect for office days~

2010-04-11T22:08:00.003+08:00

In Love Again
by Janice Wei Lan

When u smile
My life becomes a ray of light
Sing me a lullaby
To sleep at midnight

I'll be hypnotized
when looked into your eyes
Turn off the room light
Let's spend the night

Take me to far away
Away to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain for which I'll repay
Someday with a kiss and say
Can't believe that I'm in love
In love again

When the stars don't shine
And when the birds don't fly
And when the flowers cry
And when the rain runs dry
When the violet's red and when the rose turn blue
Baby I'll still be in love with you

2010-04-07T17:05:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY, DEE!!

* * *
while eating durian...
drew: wah, BAGUS!!
me: are you secretly a Malay??
drew: OOPS! (pretended like i found out some huge secret of his)
me: haha! you're not, if you were, you would have gone, "ALAMAK!".

LOL.

almost choked on the durian.
burst into laughters again seconds later.

=P so retarded lor.

today is a fat fat day.

morning interview for our internship. YAY~
then went once upon a milkshake with glyn. finally!
had cerious maple this time. think strawberry agent still nicer~

met bee for super yummy parkway chicken rice.
KOI. not milk tea this time.
hui jie's formula - oolong milk tea with chin chow, 75% sugar level
YUMS! it's new love. (:
but the large cup cost 5 bucks!! why so ex?? tsk tsk.

CP mexican chicken wings and durian afterwards.

and there's still dinner later.

i need to EXERCISE!!

one last project left.
shall finish my dissertation detailed proposal SOON.

TATA~

2010-04-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

yet another one. to buy or not to buy??
$49 from topshop.
can use my $60 gift card to get this plus maybe top-up and get a pair of hearts or ribbons stockings too. =D

*that 5c-coin abrasion mark on my chin has been making me depressed for days... RAHH!

2010-03-26T22:37:00.003+08:00

one of the very few maxi dresses that caught my eyes...

RAHH. i need longer legs. like another 5 inches longer or something.

:((

and the thing is, the hem cant even be altered. :(( why???

hmph!

GROW LEGS, GROW (longer, not fatter)!!

2010-03-25T22:10:00.005+08:00

panic attack!!

i completely forgotten about the deadline for our dissertation detailed proposal!!
8th april. omg. AND loads of unfinished business.

it IS in that schedule chucked aside somewhere in the corner of my room.

argh. was happily thinking i will start to worry about dissertation (again) after exams.
haiz. amidst the mountain of projects and individual assignments came this email/reminder from my supervisor. thank goodness!

shall go note down every single important date stated in the schedule!!

oh yes. i've been accepted for summer programme in vietnam (going ho chi minh city and hanoi)!!
weet!! hiho glynnie roomie~
we're gonna have so much fun together!
hope i dont get sick of you. =P
was thinking to myself in the shower just now, i am seeing glyn now more than i see andrew. =/

kkthx.
back to work!!

p.s.: i miss you, fat boy!

2010-03-21T15:29:00.001+08:00

was taking my 5minutes break from work.

watched xx's wedding solemnisation ceremony video.
WAH. felt like crying! i'm mad. haha.
abit cannot stand the solemniser's english.
and he actually said, "MISTER cheng" instead of "MISS cheng".
-_-"
but still, so happy for her!
(ok fine. i dont even know her personally but i always feel very happy and excited over such happy/touching stuff, for any random stranger)

i also want a super nice wedding!! =D
and a super touching proposal. *hint hint*
LOL. oh baby, dont run away~

kidding. =P

cant wait for nurse pinky's proposal and wedding~
white dresses. (:

OKAY. back to work. bye.

2010-03-21T14:38:00.003+08:00

the "latecomers club" met for breakfast this morning.
late for 30, 40 and 45 minutes.
OOPS.

how we miss our enforcer, jojo-tan!!

"nobody is allowed to wear chio clothes today."
since it was only breakfast at tampines.

how i miss jo telling dee, "if you dare wear dress, i'm gonna shred it into pieces."

coffee bean's brek-o-day was not too bad. but my scrambled eggs needed to be more runny.
hazelnut latte always make me happy. (:

anyway, i dont understand why must coffee bean ask for your name for order.
cant they just issue numbers??

i dont think i pronounced my name as HUI rong for the cashier lei. and simi CHERLIE?!?!? (p.s. NN!! i forgot cheerie's hair clip again!!)

lol. perhaps i should not name my (future) daughter Acacia after all~

our meet-up was shorter than i'd like it to be. :(
but we all feel the NEED to rush off, either for tuition or for the endless school work at home.

forgetful dee forgot to bring out my f21 stuff.
shopped for birthday cards and assessment books with her before heading over to her place to get them.
YAY. i can fit into my f21 shorts. in fact, it is a tad loose. =/

talked about our future a little. wish my graduating friends all the best kays?!! love.

reached home at 2pm. and i actually felt abit sleepy. i'm mad.

shall go JIAYOU now!!~

* * *
one day, baby asked me how was my day.
and i answered, "just like the weather now - gloomy and storming."
and he replied, "look forward to the rainbow after the storm then! (:"

thank you for being my pillar of support.
you make lousy days better.

i miss you.

dee is right. i should be more optimistic.
think POSITIVE.

and so is sheena (from her blog, not an advice directed to me la but really meaningful):
We will all be happy people if we STOP focusing on things that we CANNOT control.

learn to appreciate little things in life.

i believe and hope i will continue meeting nice people. (:

2010-03-19T01:11:00.004+08:00

kop-ed this from suyuan's blog. hope you dont mind!! thanks! =D

"I really enjoy spending time with you, even if we’re just going to be sitting around and talking about nothing. There are a million things I love about you, like your nose or the way you smile, the way you look me in the eye, too. And I just get the greatest feeling when I make you laugh. I feel as if my company makes you happy, and that’s what I wish for you. For you to be happy. And when I see you laugh at my clumsy ways, it just makes me want to spend the rest of my life with you so I can see a smile on your face."

so true... i guess everyone in love feels the same way??

from me, to you. ((:

semper fidelis

2010-03-15T00:44:00.005+08:00

dee has such great influence on me.
all she needs to do is tell me, "that BAG NICE, BUYYYY. ITS NICEEEEE."
and all i want to do is to fly down to mango tomorrow and get that bag.

what's holding me back is the promise to myself to SAVE UP and really, the NEED to save up.
but i've been waiting for THE bag for school since like... my 21st? isnt it?

GOSH. if only money drops down from the sky. HA.

should i? or should i not??

* * *
helping friend promote for her friend:

Do u wear earrings??

Take a photo of your favourite pair and email us and explain to us why you like the selected pair you have submitted to us.. selected candidate to win S$50.00 CASH!

Email must include name and date of birth with contact email address!
Email to contest@deuniques.com

2010-03-14T23:26:00.004+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY GROSS!
complained about needing to diet hours ago yet...

met jac for dinner at eighteen chefs. had SPAGHETTI with salmon and scrambled egg.
accompanied her to shop for stuff (for her expedition in thailand) at tampines.
we never get bored trying to find the ugliest piece of apparel or whatever in the shop and go, "jac/mok, this is so you!!"
so lame yet so fun (at least to us la~).

shop, shopping, shopped.
still cant believe dear jacjac carried some hiking bag and shopped around. =P

went to kim gary for dessert cos jacjac was craving for mango sago,
only to find out there is no mango sago at kim gary!! LOL.
so we ordered FRENCH TOAST, WATERMELON SNOW MOUNTAIN and MILK TEA.
yes, and i ate most of them.

i am how gross!!! i should eat lesser the coming week.

anyway, saw a bag that i quite like from mango.
almost perfect for school~
i thought is was S$68, only to find out it is 89S$.
so lame lor, mango the price tag. BOO.

p.s.: blackberry takes ugly photos lei~

there are some kind of friends whom you dont meet often, dont think about much often (especially when you're both busy) yet when you meet up (like once every few months), there isnt awkwardness and you can talk for hours.

<3 jac! congratulations once again on your graduation and all the best for your career at TTS!
the rest in the sms. ((: lovelove~

MUACKS.

a great way to end this week...

2010-03-14T13:25:00.002+08:00

things arent going so well lately.

number 1:
i hate awkward silence.
and the need to feel like i have to think of some topics to talk about.
yet at the same time, i must be watchful of what i say or comment.
"我知道她不愛我
她的眼神說出她的心"

number 2:
it feels like primary school all over again.
acting like some kid shouting "i dont friend you!!" and doing childish sort of "revenge".
i despise scheming people and people who abuse their authority.
lost (almost) all respect for you.

number 3:
this will be more serious than the normal "level" if it's really the case.
but i hopefully hope it isnt so.
which i still BELIEVE it isnt so.

number 4:
project deadlines are less than a month away.
and what have we been doing??
i really really hate myself for sleeping so much.
or for being so incapable.
why is my attention span so low?
and the worse part is i'm here complaining yet not having the drive and motivation to be doing something about it.
i tried. and i wasted hours. i lost the momentum.

please take me away.

2010-03-12T20:50:00.005+08:00

i was so bored trying to find articles for our research methodology project literature review.
FRUITLESS. and it's pissing me off.

what are you good at? getting angry with myself (over my incapabilities).

and then i started browsing through old photos in my folders.
found these. i miss the late nights in TH together with dee. ((:

rather bad quality photos~

although you may be damn bitchy at times (i believe i get really bitchy and idiotic sometimes too), i still love you, dee!!

we're all gonna survive this semester~
JIAYOU!!

* * *
i said, "if i say i'll marry whoever buys me an iphone, will you buy one for me??" =D
he replied, "what's mine is yours. so you can use mine." (:
*major roll eyes~

cant wait for my plan to end!! NOVEMBER!!
wah. must start saving~
seems like i got many things to save up for!!! :((

2010-03-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

was reading the readings uploaded by vincent for research methodology project. and then i drifted off to advance valuation project (for a minute or two) before googling on my ethics project.

i am so distracted. not getting anything done in the end.

cant seem to focus this semester. it just keep getting worse.
i feel tired super easily. wondering if i'm suffering from some sort of sleeping disorder - sleep too much.

on a side note, i am pleasantly surprised that i scored 100 marks for my research methodology mid-term. probably the one and only test in nus that i will ever score full marks. nothing to be real happy about because i know very well that doing well for this test is plain luck and i am still really confused by this entire module. if only that is our final paper. HA!

i bought a pair of light denim shorts from f21 and another pair of acid wash jeans from urban outfitters lately. i HOPE they fit. i should start dieting now, just in case.

gonna order a simple dress from f21 tomorrow cos dee's very busy now. i'll be patient. if it's gone tomorrow, it's just not fated. (:

oh yes, i NEED to SAVE up for my holidays.
at least i didnt buy that topshop dress from my previous post!! =D

i miss jasmine. she feels so near yet so far.
i am meeting nini and dee on saturday night for fish and co. dinner and skype with beloved jo.
i am meeting jac on sunday for dinner. just you and me. ;)

back to work!!
*pray that project meetings and progress will be smooth this time round*

emo-day over yesterday. school sucks big time.

2010-03-04T17:01:00.006+08:00

RAHHH~

finally finished two mid-term papers!!

glyn and i treated ourselves to retail therapy after school. heh heh.
it's BAD when she drives to school AND then we end lessons early.

lunch at carl's junior. and we had the BIG COW. lol.
shopped at dorothy perkins, miss selfridge and topshop.
enough to last us for hours.

and we were supposed to be home EARLY to do work.
hopeless. but enjoying every moment of it.

tmd. i feel very cheated by raffles city topshop but i am just so lazy to illustrate why.
just quite pissed off with them. they cost me sadness and wasted my time travelling.
there goes that skirt i wanted. and because of that i (sort of) gave up this mini dress.

SHOULD I GO BACK TO BUY THIS??? vote please. on my tagboard. either let me "si xin" or let me know i should rush back to buy this by this weekend~

thanks!!

p.s.: the back of the dress has like criss-cross lines. dont know how to describe. yea~
dont really like the prints but love the cut!

2010-02-28T15:09:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday, YY!! =D next sunday~

anyway korea looks really nice and dreamy. great place to relax.
saw photos on jo's blog (click on my link "koreanatan" for updates on cheryl's exchange in korea), totally korean drama style. love the ice skating rink! and i wanna eat ramen from the wok/lid too.

i wanna get out of singapore!! but i needa first save up.

pending: bangkok with the aps gang late july (after don is back!)
confirm: taiwan with sis and cousins late september (during my mid-term break!! - gotta study harder during school term)

this means no more new clothes (especially online shopping) and whatever. i can only spend vouchers. hehehe.

i should also stop going msn or using the laptop. facebook is damn sinful.
got lots of work to catch up with, prepare, complete. but here i am, blogging.

ARGH! gonna zoom off to study for my gender studies mid-term later on.
research methodology tomorrow. and advanced valuation tutorial and projects research(es) here and there coming week.

celebrated mama's birthday the other night. sis came home for a while after zi-char dinner.

with the help of the mini-tripod. happy birthday, mommy!! (rather yummy strawberry chocolate cake from eatzi, eastpoint)

didnt even realise how old they look until i stared at this photo... cant wait to go out to work and give them better lives!! (hopefully~)

STUDY TIME! (stop munching on new year goodies!!)

2010-02-26T22:35:00.008+08:00

i have $60 topshop voucher (from dear glyn, jasmine and suzanne for my 22nd) and i still havent decided what to spend on. by the way, THANKS girls! =D

tried this dress. super cute and love it. but it's freaking $89!! MAD.

and the other day i tried something else too.
light lavender top (super translucent) and floral high-waisted shorts! i like~
$39 for top. $86 for bottom. CRAZY!

all super love but no~
i still have like 5 months to use the voucher. hehe.

blogging is getting boring especially if
1. you have no pictures in your entry
2. you have too many pictures to choose from

so my life updates are basically on fb. BUT since i dont want to lose my (already pathetic) readership. keke. i shall try to blog more often!!

basically, my chinese new year was a great one! gave myself a full week holiday. hehe. (regretting that choice now a little. since two mid-terms are coming up and i'm totally clueless. *pouts!)

DAY 1 at grandma's place. xin nian kuai le!!

DAY 2 at pinky's. MAHJONG!!! =D

DAY 3 visited ms chia. omg. she has not one, but TWO sons already!!

jaclyn chow chow made it in the end. LOVE. your celebrations start NOW! congratulations on your graduation, darling!! got SO MUCH to share!! *winks.

DAY 4 kbox and house visiting with the babes. thanks dee for your tasty love letters! wii at nn's. steamboat at my place. wonderful day~

DAY 5 farewell dinner at cheryl's place, before she leaves for KOREA the next day. hardly any pictures cos we were either busy eating or gambling. hee.

DAY 6 sent off our beloved babe, dearie cheryljojo at the airport. felt damn idiotic to cry after she left. you'll be home soon!! xoxo

visited drew's mama. hee. dinner at his place. stupid pirate introduced me to How I Met Your Mother. damn hilarious. gonna watch them all after this semester. getting busy with school already.

DAY 7 was work. rushed home after work to see my favourite kieren!! as cute as ever~

DAY 8 APS Lou Hei Dinner at Grand Shanghai, Grand Copthorne Hotel. The early birds.

the DCs. love glyn and shayne! =D won best dressed. $50 takashimaya vouchers. muahaha!

percy jackson is such a kiddo movie!! i feel rather cheated after watching it.
2 movies which i am looking forward to:
1. Ironman 2
2. Clash with the Titans (or something like that)

just skyped with cheryl. got this tingling feeling inside. like emotionally-retarded or something. the moment i closed the window, i thought i was gonna cry. lameshit.

night all!! (working saturday is getting a little dreadful. especially when school is getting busy.)

2010-02-14T01:30:00.003+08:00

Hiho, everyone!!

i've been gone for quite some time.
busy. tired. exhausted.

by the way, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
we're all gonna have a prosperous year ahead. (:

and also, Happy Valentine's Day, dear!!

friday kbox-ed with yy, shayne, lola and amanda.
dinner with dee and marie. ;)

saturday brunch at sakae. sakae teppanyaki opens at 12pm and not 11am?!
watched valentine's day. sweet and cute movie.

lalala~

looking forward to house-visiting this time.
(sadly i got lots of work to catch up with!)

shall update when i get photos and stuff. TATA~

2010-01-29T22:26:00.002+08:00

starting on a fresh page.

we're gonna survive this.

2010-01-25T16:42:00.004+08:00

yesterday was a great great sunday! =D

started the day with lunch at ma maison with the s21 peeps.

FINALLY gotta see my beloved jacjac who was damn late.
had abit of desserts at gobi. pretty shop.

mark wasnt feeling well yesterday despite it being a celebration for him, pricycia and me.
get well soon, dude!
jacjac had tuition at 3pm so she hurried off.

went down to orchard to meet darling glyn and yy. hehe.
but i was early, or should i say they were late? haha. anyway was kinda last minute decision.

bumped into my babes!! who were in orchard trying to find my birthday present.
hehehe.
thanks for the topshop dress and stockings. love them. since we kinda chose it together.
hahaha. so hard to find a decent clutch. shall call that off.
babes, really thank you very much!! MUACKS.

finally joined glyn and yy to continue our retail therapy.
bought a pair of heels from charles & keith. got black while glyn got the brown version.
the one we've been eyeing since last...... friday? haha.
thanks glyn and yy!! it's gonna be present from the aps gang. WAHAHA.

moving on, me and glyn (again) bought the same belt at dorothy perkins.
love it! almost love at first sight and it totally matches my dress from the babes.

lalala~

thanks yy for carrying our shopping bags around. heh.

toffee nut latte is love!

dinner at popeyes with the rest of the aps gang after their work.
sent don off. bon voyage, buddy!

ya kun-ed with glyn and yy before heading home.

great company is love. and that happy feeling can last for days.

2010-01-21T22:51:00.006+08:00

went shopping after lessons at 313@somerset with drewboy.
walked around the whole mall but couldnt really find any clothes for CNY.
SIAN.

anyway, got my early present from him. ((:

thanks, baby!
for walking almost the whole of orchard road with me to find the "perfect" pair of shades.
for being patient with me while i choose THE ONE.
for pampering love today. =D

on a side note, the salesgirl at the fossil shop (313) is super friendly and helpful.
full of rubbish and silly comments.
cant believe i joked back with her and we kinda like chatted for damn long??
anyway, she thought andrew and i were married and that we're 24 or something. GOSH.
and i thought she's 19 or something but we are actually of the same age!
feel super OLD and chao lao beside her!!!

and drewboy told me he thinks i grew fatter from my slimmer days. OMG.

double blow!!

BREATHE IN and then BREATHE OUT.

OMG!!

i'm gonna try lose weight, some how.
and hopefully i'll look younger when i do lose some weight. RAHH~

* * *
SATURDAY~

we're so gonna have this...

FOR ME:

FOR YOU:picnic picnic takeaway from sakae.
cant wait!!
annie's gonna be happy 3rd time round this time. ;)

2010-01-20T00:19:00.007+08:00

blogging has become a chore recently.

keep feeling tired despite having 8 hours of sleep each night. okay, sometimes 6.
oh wells. then again, when was i ever not tired/sleepy.

so much events have passed but too lazy to update.

more eventful ones:

sunday brunch with the babes at waffletown.
with da ge this time round too. after so many years!!
saboteur-ed at botanic garden. love the ambience and company. (:

G.A.Y dinner at spagheddies. love the apple crumble there. YUMS. rendezvous~

watched invictus and body guards and assassins with dear. HEAVY stuff there. =P

drewboy now has a "punkster" hairstyle. LOL. "you're not 16 anymore~"

cosy birthday celebration at ah ma's place on sunday night. omg. i'm 22! hee, my ah ma is so cute!! (made her pose 22 with me)

TAIWAN in SEPTEMBER!! cant wait. ((: girl power~

guitar hero and mahjong at amanda's. madness. =D i am super lousy at whatever form of computer/arcade games. :((

lots of career talks in school. need more formal wear attires. need COMFY heels!!
my poor battered feet. get well soon! cos you're in for it again tomorrow.

by the way, due to popular demand (haha. only from one or two actually), i'm gonna share my wishlist here!! =D

1. Clutch that can fit my phone, money, camera and TISSUES (taken by babes)
2. Bag that can fit A4 and is not too heavy on its own
3. Shades to block UV ray at work (taken by punkdrew)
4. Gucci Eau De Parfum II
5. Comfy dressy heels (the charles & keith one??)
6. Vouchers for clothes (hehehe)

kekeke. ok, actually i did say that after 21, no need for presents anymore.
but... forming a wishlist makes me excited and look forward to my birthday~

no obligations, people!! =D REALLY.

night night to all~

2010-01-06T14:58:00.010+08:00

cheryl was complaining that i'm so boring cos i havent really been updating my blog since christmas or something. HA. cheryl loves me.

realise many people give an overview of 2009 and how they hope 2010 would turn out for them. but i guess 2009 for me was just another (great) year, nothing extremely significant that i can name out. just myself turning 21, and many many 21st birthday parties i've attended. let me try to recall...

Work

perhaps something i am grateful i did in 2009 was to take up the weekend job at aps siwm school. initial months were so so, always complaining about my stupid uneven tan. as the months passed by, my concern was not the tan but the mozzie bites. like whatever. but i made lots of friends! widen my little little circle of trust.

i'm probably one of those people who are contented with their handful of close friends and find it rather hard to be THAT CLOSE to new people they meet. i mean, yes, i can be friendly, nice and all, but that i just dont feel comfortable going out with just you that sort of thing or like cant wait to see you again sort. but at the same time, i like meeting new people. NICE people. people on the same frequency and can have fun. so i'm really thankful to have met don, eugene, amanda, shayne, yy, lola, jy and wl. plus of course, glyn. they make work worth looking, and after work worth dying for. LOL.

- lunch breaks
- after work dinner
- tao huay delivery
- ktv @ teo heng
- car accident we almost got into
( leaving me with a "sprained" neck and a big scratch on don's car)
- dessert supper
- impromptu htht @ amanda's (which lasted till almost 4am)
- game of taboo @ ICON (condominium cool like shit and with yy in the game, hilarious like hell)

already planning for chill out at don's place this saturday after work and dinner. gonna watch some dvds and play apples to apples. most probably we're all staying over. question is, how to tell mommy!! argh. leave that to worry on saturday. and another day for guitar heroes at amanda's!! totally looking forward to that. don is leaving for exchange in 17 days. we dont have much time!!! still haven played pool, paintballs, wii and whatnots. gonna send him off on 24th and enjoy popeyes~

they're the sort you feel comfortable enough to do a Lady Gaga "MTV" with...

School

i've once again surprise myself by being able to pull up my CAP score. it just gets harder thus i just have to work even harder. thought i manage to pull up my CAP, i still need to appeal for dissertation. argh. missed by that bit. when do i start typing the appeal letter thing?? TSK. totally regretted not studying during first year. that shall serve as my motivation. though it's really hard since i have really short attention span and take a longer time than others to understand something. ok, now i sound stupid. oh well.

i understand conflicts are unavoidable. sometimes i feel like, perhaps it's true that friends shouldnt do projects together. but instead of thinking that way, i want to believe we can all approach such issues in a more a "professional" way next time. ((: bear no grudges. love still~

and for the first time, i actually have a German friend, sort of. that feeling of knowing someone and sending him off, knowing, that may just be the last time you'll see him again. special, in a sense.

they're the sort you can feel unhappy AND happy simultaneously with...

Family and Friends

family, still the same. had our first ever family chalet in 2009. it's so fun that everyone's more enthusiastic about gatherings and stuff. not that we werent excited in the past, but those were usually confined to ah ma's place. we always need to like PERSUADE and CONVINCE ah ma to get out of the house. and it's just not as fun if ah ma doesnt come along. yaa daa~ xoxo to my little cosy family!!

as we busied ourselves with school, the babes and i met up lesser in 2009 than the previous year. used to have friday nights together until our schedule disallowed, as well as my saturday job which starts early. nevertheless, still major loves to them. our yearly slumber party didnt have mask-session but watching dvd, htht till dawn, making scrumptious breakfast and soaking in pool/tanning together are always LOVE.

2010 will see our beloved c-jo going away to Korea for 6 months or so for her exchange. gonna miss you big time!!! though like you said, we meet up only every 1 to 2 months in 2009, it's still not the same if you're not in the same island as we do!! time to borrow uncle's webcam for skype. and you'll be missing dee's birthday. we shall go macs celebrate so that we can connect to wifi and skype with you. hehehe.

feel really bad/sad that i've only hang out with suz and jasmine, together with glyn (i still see her at work), only once after our papers (but that was enjoyable enough to stay in my memory!). every school break is like that. with suz going back to RE from monday to friday. me and glyn at aps in the weekends. feel so bad jasmine is lonely and bored too, being maria at home!! sorry dear!! so gonna make up for it. (:

and of course, other friends whom you dont meet on a regular basis but they hold a place dearly in your heart. (: our little htht sessions at coffee joints, somebody's place and stuff. or the once in a while lunches and meet up. just because i dont look for you ALL THE TIME, doesnt mean i dont care. if any day you need me, i'm just a call away!

they're the sort you know you will spend the rest of your lives together with...

Love

baby started his uni-life in 2009. that is when i started feeling a little insecure and stuff. afraid that he'll meet someone better than me and all the nonsense. but of course, my worries were unnecessary. nothing's changed. he still loves me the same. ((:

insecurities suck big time.
ok, now i'm guilty.

i know some of my actions or decisions left you feeling insecure and uneasy. but i am grateful you've always been understanding and have absolute trust and faith in me. ((: blah blah blah. the rest are meant for your ears only. i love you.

he's the sort i would never ever want to hurt...

Me

i'm like turning 22 in a few weeks. tmd. thought i just celebrated my 21st as well as many many others'. especially when your boyfriend just turned 21 few weeks back. =P

although i feel old, i still feel that, i'm kinda young to know what i really want. RAHH.

sometimes you just feel confused and uncertain. (no, i'm not lesbain. not that sort of confused) ok. shall stop here. there're just some things you tell different people and it's just not meant for everyone.

long hair, short hair, long hair. finally chopped off my long hair in 2009 due to persuasion from babes and myself turning 21. wanted to do something DIFFERENT. turns out, most people prefer me with shorter hair!! hahahaha. however, i'm gonna keep it long for this coming semester because dear misses my long hair. hahaha. gonna cut it when i'm a year 4 undergrad. ;)

dont think i'm actually gonna set any resolutions for myself because either i cant fulfil them or i just forget about them. dee did write my resolutions for me though.

in summary, i shall just do everything i can to keep myself happy and also, understand that i can never please everyone. but i will still do my best to make the people i care about happy too. =D

have a GREAT GREAT year, everybody~

2010-01-01T02:25:00.002+08:00

kop-ed this from sheena's blog:

The Art of Marriage

"In the art of Marriage the little things are the big things …

It is never being too old to hold hands.

It is remembering to say, “I love You”, at least once each day.

It is never going to sleep angry.

It is having a mutual sense of values and common objectives.

It is standing together facing the world.

It is forming a circle of love that gathers in the whole family.

It is speaking words of appreciation and demonstrating gratitude in thoughtful ways.

It is having the capacity to forgive and forget.

It is in giving each other an atmosphere in which each can grow.

It is finding room for the things of the spirit.

It is a common search for the good and the beautiful.

It is not only marrying the right partner.

It is being the right partner."

found this really meaningful.
not only applicable to a marriage, but relationship as well.

* * *
i really admire the way she notices (and appreciates) all the little things in life.
and how she believes in the existence of TRUE LOVE.
sheena, you're truly a sunshine. (:
will never ever forget how you "brighten" up my dfs work life.
your warm and friendly smile as well as personality.
although we do not really hang out anymore, you've already left a great impact in my life.
and i'm sure, many others too.

* * *
Happy 2010 to all!

Keeping grudge means focusing on life's ugliest moments.
So, cast all the unhappiness of 2009 behind and look forward to a better 2010~

many LOVES.

2009-12-30T19:06:00.001+08:00

htht with dearest jacjac. ((:

2009-12-25T09:03:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas, all darlings!!

x'mas eve at APS was a great one!
although we had like laksa, satays and the not very christmasie sort of food, the present exchange was fun!
probably we were a little tipsy from the tequila shots auntie wendy went around, forcing down our throats. HAHA. couldnt stop chanting "hug hug hug" and "kiss kiss kiss".

i'm so thankful the people there make work on saturdays worth looking forward to. (:
loves~

thanks dear for going to the party with me!
sorry that you turned red and all that.

i wanna spend every christmas together. (:

evening was spent with the babes, of course.
dinner at la nonna. gifts exchange.
thanks dee for the planner (though i've already bought one for 2010).
thankful the year's not included so i can always fill it in for 2011. =D

supposed to go up mount faber to catch the "snow" and admire the xmas tree.
but it was freaking crowded with no parking space for us.
RAHHHH.
went into sentosa in the end, hoping to drink our favourite starbucks.
which dee said it's RIGHT AT THE BEACH STATION.
it was coffee bean, hon.
but anyways, my hazelnut latte was yummy. ((:
SATISFIED.

chillax till we gotta send nn home early as she's leaving for cameron highlands at 5am!
if only we could hang out longer!!
just in time to shout "merry christmas" at her car park.
enjoy yourself there, baby!!

lots of love~
many many more christmases together!

2009-12-23T23:47:00.001+08:00

Andrew says:
haha..
true..
so 25th we meet in aft?
arnd 1?
* m o k_i e ❤s her foursome and AWesome says:
1
Andrew says:
2
Mark >> Undeserved, unearned and unmerited favour says:
3
* m o k_i e ❤s her foursome and AWesome says:
v funny juveniles
Mark >> Undeserved, unearned and unmerited favour says:
high five dude
Andrew says:
high ten!

oh man. *shakes head*

=D

2009-12-23T19:13:00.002+08:00

exactly one more month to the big THREE. ((:

in the end, we were too lazy for night safari. hee.
27th okay?? see if the rest wanna join~
had yummy cai fan near his place.
watched zombie-land on the laptop.
quite entertaining.

he cooked me yummy xiao long baos bought from sheng shiong.
i'm surprised they actually tasted good.
wasnt satisfied so we had cocktail sausages as well.
super yummy. springy with bits of bacon inside.

gosh. i'm like some hungry monster.
shall diet after christmas. hehehe.

WEET! so excited. cant wait for tomorrow! =D

SHOULD I GO THREADING TOMORROW??!!
ARGH. fickle-minded.

going off to wrap presents. TATA~

2009-12-21T22:41:00.002+08:00

watched Avatar in 3D!! gotta say the movie is actually quite good~
as i was watching the movie, i kept telling myself to NEVER watch any 3D movie ever again.
uncomfortable glasses or perhaps it's just the images. whichever, DIZZINESS!

feel so heart pain to see baby so tired after work and the movie still gave him headache.
he's suddenly made to report for work at like 5.30 am!! hope you can sleep well tonight.

night safari will be postponed. i shall be understanding.
wednesday night or next week?? (:

bought something else for aps christmas eve party exchange gift.
something more fun. cos don said, "water bottle is NOT a present."
FINE.

22nd: grandma's house, eat tang yuan~
23rd: night safari. yes? no?
24th: aps x'mas eve party. x'mas dinner with the babes.
25th: picnic with 2/3 babes. ah ma's bday dinner.
26th:
27th: jin hui's bday lunch
28th: ktv with aps lunch gang
29th:
30th or 31st: night safari if previously no.

i am eff-ing pissed off with i dont-know-what. mozzie bites keep appearing on me! especially on the legs. freaking itchy!! cannot stop scratching. and one of the bite has blue black around it!!

DIE, mosquitoes, DIE!!!

2009-12-21T00:15:00.002+08:00

dear santa,

i would love to hope for many many pretty presents and even, MONEY dropping from the sky, into my hands!!

but after my bestie talked to me, i have only one wish - which is for everyone i love and care about to be healthy and happy. (:

papa heng, you must get well soon.
really hope it's nothing serious.

xoxo,
the girl who believes in miracles

2009-12-17T20:21:00.012+08:00

happy happy belated 21st birthday, my dearest!!

fortunately everyone's still well after eating my tiramisu.
=D first attempt. *BEAMS.
thanks dee for letting me go over, but i made it up by being maria okay!!
made a pretty card which i am super proud of.
major loves~

p.s.: i know there's grammar error but i've got no marker at home to edit!

had a great time at pulau ubin~
thanks to mark, cute little joshua, jh and sy for turning up.
glad that andrew was really surprised.
though initially he kept asking me who i was sms-ing.
hee. sorry that he decided to be late and then still wanna go eat fried carrot cake.

cooling weather initially.
scorching hot after lunch.
storming on the way to and at chek jawa.
WE MUST GO CHECK OUT CHEK JAWA AGAIN!!
(with rubber slippers or kayaking shoes this time.)

thank you for "protecting" my birkies and risking your PUMAs. hehe. =*
many many more double-bike rides with you. ((:
till i finally move out of my comfort zone and LEARN how to ride w bicycle. =P

looking forward to our night safari next week!!
hope there wont be last minute changes~

next week is gonna be fun-filled and exciting!!!
and glyn, like you, me love the APS lunch group~

life is good. (:

* * *
changed my blogskin! loved my old one but the image is "expired" or something.
same thing for glyn's and jasmine's blogs.

slowly liking my new blogskin~

should i shift my blog to tumblr??

2009-12-13T17:47:00.008+08:00

the "friendship" or your relationship??

if it's affecting your relationship, end it.

tell me now, how do i end it?

i should have dealt with it better.
or perhaps, not deal with it at all, right from the start.

:(

nobody but myself to blame.

DONT be afraid to "hurt" someone's feelings.
anyway, perhaps that person wouldnt even feel hurt. right??

DEE:
you thought the guy changed,
but actually its just that your perception of him changed... slowly...
you start to find the things you used to love about him irritating now.
dont wait until you are losing him.
cos then you will realise that actually you love him more den you think.

gonna keep that in mind.

i love you, bee. ((:

* * *
gonna spend $160 on my hair coming friday.
why is soft rebonding expensive AGAIN??
called up so many salons but like most of them are close to $200.
simi sai. i remember my last rebonding cost me only $98???
gosh. totally BUDGET!!! :((

holiday means no allowance.
december means bee's birthday, x'mas, new year and whatever celebrations.
need clothes for x'mas!!!
january and febraury means anniversary's coming... so is MY birthday and vday.
thankful for chinese new year!! though i am visiting lesser people as i grow older...
(meaning less ang baos)

will santa sneak into my room this christmas and give me a big fat ang bao???!

goodness. i have become even more money-minded than ever!!

snap out of it.

2009-12-10T12:04:00.010+08:00

HELLO!!

lalala. am feeling happy recently. =D

dim sum at ah yat seafood restaurant, shaw tower, with dear.
read books, 8days and did nothing at changi beach before nasi lemak dinner.

spent 6 to 7 hours at TCC, citylink, with suz, glyn and then jasmine.
mad loves.
had some mini gay entertainment. hee.

great night out with glyn, suz, jerermy, hui jie and michael.
dinner at fortune cuisine, sunset way.
drinks at timbre substation.
tao huay and grass jelly at selegie.

sent michael off at the airport after work on saturday.
first time sending a friend off for like almost forever.
unless he's coming back singapore or we're going Germany.
how i wish i have the money to go Europe. HEHs.

brunch-ed with dear on a lovely sunday. ((:
POPEYES!!! happy like what. love the mashed potato.
did some ntuc marketing with drew and drew mom.
thanks auntie for the salmon. kekeke.

met up with you-know-who-you-are at eastpoint and then my place.
heart-to-heart talk.
girl, please BE STRONG.
will be here for you when you really need me.
but please dont be TOO dependent on anyone!!
there's just so much i can do and say but you gotta help yourself!

watched ninja assassin with dee and jo. the movie was surprisingly NOT BAD!!
haha. hot bod but ugly face. a few cheesy lines. hehe.
couldnt stop joking about ninjas since then.
nn joined for a little bit of shopping and then dinner at sushi tei.
slumber party at jo's place. for the first time, we had no mask session!!
lousy toa payoh watsons.
had KOI bubble tea though. YUMS.

planned our x'mas eve dinner.
collected our gifts from bangkok - funky shades. THANKS cherio~
dvd-ed. ghost of girlfriends past. and i kept thinking it's ghosts of ex-girlfriends. HA.
cant believe cheryl fell asleep!!
the rest of us finished the movie and went to sleep in the guest room.
SO SAD!! dee didnt welcome me to squeeze in the king size bed with her and nn.
it's obviously big enough lor...
chatted till we could see the sun rising. fell asleep about 7am before waking at 11am.
went back to c-jo's room to "spoon" her. haha. KIDDING.
laze around till nn came over too.
washed up and did abit of online window shopping until lazybumdee was finally woken by us.

cooked brunch together!! was like fungry~
pancakes, scrambled eggs, bacon strips, salad and apple pear juice.
totally healthy and delicious.
wanted to watch another dvd but c-jo actually doesnt know how to operate her living room dvd player.
ended up watching discovery channel and growing up on 5!!
finished a packet of tao kay noi.

oh! and tmd-ly, i kena-ed!!! so no pool soaking for me~
the girls were having such fun in the water while i sat on the deck and snapped photos.
(and TRIED tanning my boobs but sadly that uneven tan is still there!)
showered and home sweet home.
swear i almost knocked out on the bus ride home. dee did!

ME LOVE ME BABES!!! lots of smoochies for each and every one of you~

orchard-ed with sis for x'mas shopping.
muahaha. bought like lots of stuffs.
ok, now that i really look at my purchase, not that alot actually. =/
bought THE x'mas gift for one of the babes. hope she'll like it!! hee. (cannot post the picture yet)
bought a 2010 planner for myself. damn happy!! super cute and pretty.

finally gotten myself fitting shorts from cotton on. black and white. 30 bucks. =D
bought (andrew's cousin) sheryl's 21st present. a pretty bracelet. i like!!

sis gave me a precious moments passport holder. hehehe.
lastly, gotten the x'mas exchange present for APS x'mas eve party.

met up with pinky for coffee at starbucks.
and like seriously, the non-smoking area and smoking area are only separated by one pathetic divider. retarded. so we left for home earlier than planned.
online window shop and chatted.
had bird's nest. muahaha. love it when sissy comes home.
macs breakfast this morning.

drew's over now~
gonna go to sheryl's 21st party tonight.
TATA~

p.s.: DEE HENG. where are the photos you promised last night?!!

2009-11-30T19:39:00.005+08:00

exams are finally OVER!! =D

extreme happiness.

pang seh-ed mark for lunch. heh. sorry, MARKIE!
love you still. haha.
dont pretend to puke, i'll punch you!!

went on a date with sui lan to vivo city. our virgin date. LOL.
lunch at asian kitchen. my favourite dan dan mian, xiao long bao and some banana with coconut milk and sago.
window shopping. visited pet safari and daiso. FUN. but super tiring.
age is catching up with me.
as we walked on, i kena regretted. felt like i should have came home and SLEEP!
couldnt fall asleep last night. too excited or something. CRAZY.
but sui lan is crazy. LOVE!

met bee after his work. wah. my boyfriend looks so handsome today!!
hehe. in his student-like work uniform, looking like a MAN. yum. haha. ((:

i still havent had my shaker fries!!! ROAR.

tried fish tycoon when i reached home, hoping to have "common topics" with the two bfs - best friend and boyfriend. PUI~
NOT FUN LA!! so boring!! sorry~

tuesday: partoh!! =D
wednesday: girls day out
thursday: the indecisive bunch and German Michael
friday: rest day?
saturday: work and huimin's birthday party after work on saturday?? hmm. GLYN??
sunday: work
monday: babes days. WEET! ninja assassin and slumber party!!
tuesday: sunbathe and soak in the pool? or should we hit the gym or jog around the neighbourhood??

rebond my fugly hair wednesday or thursday??
where should i do it? feel so budget...

WOOHOO!!

excitedness. hope i still get allowance this holiday?? =/
shall whine to papa. even half is better than nothing~

LALALA~

* * *
last friday, ah boy's birthday celebration.

andrew and i came in second for the HORRENDOUSLY DIFFICULT crossword puzzle~
prize - ice pop. i swear i heard ah boy said "ipod" and i was like SERIOUS?!!! -_-"

Happy Birthday, Baobei!! =D

* * *
hopefully more interesting updates to come~

TATA.

p.s.: Singapore is so limited... WHERE can we go and what shall we do??

2009-11-15T01:15:00.004+08:00

hee. one item down the to-buy-list.
bought a dark grey cardigan from mango just now.

=D love.

dinner with the s21 peeps at suki-ya.
secret recipe cakes and 7-eleven drinks at sg flyer "river".
fainting game?
game of murderer.

photos with jin hui~

weet.

enjoyed my evening so much!

happy 21st birthday, wanxuan!!
happy 21st birthday (in advance), hui shan!!

p.s.: i probably need a personal tutor or human alarm to FORCE me to study. like pull my hair when i doze off. drag me back to the bedroom when i try to watch the tv in the living room. and most importantly, shut down my laptop when i attempt to switch it on.

BYE.

2009-11-14T14:18:00.002+08:00

gosh. i feel so depressed.

the pretty ASOS top i bought online finally reached me.
BUT i cant zip it up the bust area. boohoo.
how come it isnt made of stretchy material?!!
i'm POSITIVE that the top is MY SIZE.

should i order a size bigger?~
it's almost 40 bucks!
if it still cant be zipped up, i'm gonna kill myself.

*ROARS.

glyn is WRONG when she says no female is going to turn to another and think like,
"if only i got smaller boobs, like hers..."

watched 2012 with dear last evening.
it was so-so. rolled eyes alot though. i mean seriously??
you cant be THAT lucky. nevermind.

finally brought him to try the pan-fried buns.
suz's right, after eating it a few times, actually not so yummy anymore~

gonna be out celebrating wanxuan and huishan's birthdays later.
finally gonna see my jac jac!! =D

omg. i NEED concentration. less distractions. and lots of luck.
STUDY. you sickening girl, what have you been doing?~

cant wait for exams to be over!!!
not that i've got planSSS but still, i know there's alot of things that i would wanna do.
e.g. picnic-H2H-w-hon, KAYAK lei!! desaru?? (we've been at it for how long?!) and shopping!! plus working of course.

to-buy-list:
1. denim shorts
2. fitting black/white shorts
3. nice black cardigan
4. bag which can fit A4
5. a nice pair of jeans

and whatever pretty things i see! =D

doo doo doo~

2009-11-09T18:15:00.002+08:00

met dear drewboy for brunch before his paper and my lecture. =D
(havent met for a week!!)
astons at singpost. yummy spicy seafood marinara. ((:
and i thought you werent supposed to eat lamb or steak. tsk tsk.

i cant believe we're left with barely a month to the end of exams.
and i havent even started mugging. damn. i MUST really start my extensive concentrated studying sessions tomorrow. no, make it tonight, after dinner.

i hope i have enough sleep already. since i spent the whole of sunday sleeping.
what is wrong with me?! i think i spent half of my life sleeping.

i am suddenly worried about my FUTURE. like weird...

i'm worried that i wouldnt have enough money to enjoy retirement.
i'm worried that i'll have health issues (due to the delicious fatty food i eat and lack of exercise) and that i'll be a burden to my spouse and children.
i'm DAMN worried that i'll be BALD, judging from the amount of hair i find on the pillow each morning.

boohoo. i worry way too much.
dont tell me i'm being paranoid, negative and annoying.
bcos i know that! kinda annoying the shit out of myself.

just a PASSING thought...

still, how can we sustain our current lifestyles in future, if we spend more than we earn now?

and why do i perpetually feel the need to buy more clothes?
and where do my pay from work goes to??

rubbish aside.
shall go study SOON!!

baby, all the best for your last paper tomorrow.
remember to submit your Who, Where, What, When, Why, HOW? report to me asap. =P

glyn, jasmine, suz, dee, c-jo, mark and erm, whoever reads my blog and is having exams soon,
ALL THE BEST!! study hard, drink plenty of water, eat healthily and get enough rest.

JIAYOUs~

2009-11-06T18:57:00.003+08:00

rema project is finally over!! YAY~

camped over in school last night with suz, glyn, hui jie and jeremy.
no time for sleeping at all!! we're how horrible.
last minute choingsters.

lunch (mini wok), dinner (mcspicy), supper (sheares hall naan!!), breakfast (macs), lunch (fish slice soup) in school.
and many many tea breaks worth of hokkaido buns.

i feel so freaking FAT and unhealthy. and zombily tired too.
waiting for dinner to be digested before i sleep till tomorrow (got work! boohoo).

having sleep-over in school reveals all the ugly and worse sides of your friends.
i could totally smell my own and maybe hui jie's stinky feet. (but only bcos i wore pumps and him birkenstock)
i look totally obasan-ish (or so said jeremy) with hairband and spectacles. AND hui jie said my tunic looked like my pyjamas.
suzanne looks like a ghost when she's tired. super fair/pale face and red-eyed.
hui jie kept on slapping his barely visible tummy and flabbing his use-to-be-toned arms across my table.
glyn was moody and fierce.
jeremy finally looked ugly, when he got woken up by me.
and i might have irritated whoever was not in the "high" mood when i got all hyped up late into the night, before "it" came to haunt me during the 9am and 2pm lectures.

the first and the last, i hope.

point to note: i think i can handle "sad" people better than "pissed off" people. too easily influenced and thus get myself into that mood too. it's not healthy...

off to stone before i sleep!!! goodnight loves.

p.s.: missing dear as we haven really met up and spent time in a while. :( anyway, good luck for your papers!!! and you arent supposed to see this now, sort of. =P

2009-11-03T00:32:00.005+08:00

shall follow suit jasmine and glyn.
finally my turn now, yea?

that 5000-word report due on thursday is rapidly killing my brain cells.
i find myself feeling hungry every few hours and drifting away from work.

oh, and that constant gastric pain i've been getting since last thursday or friday.
totally distracting.

even as my eyes are threatening to close on me now, like the shutters at the kopitiam below your block when the clock strikes 11pm (HAHA), i will not give in to the temptation of my big comfy bed right next to me.

dinner with dear wad cancelled due to "unforeseen" circumstances.
thankful for that short 2 hours of company.
a four-leaf clover for you. ((:
8days is probably the only form of weekly entertainment for me now.

you can do it. we'll pull through this week,
and then study break and exams.

no, i am not going to sleep at 3am and miss my alarm the next morning.
i will not waste almost a quarter of my weekly allowance on cab,
and still be half an hour late for class.

long gone were the days......

2009-10-30T20:32:00.006+08:00

confessions of a mokaholic.

confused.
is it a BAD habit?
what can i do now?

what is wrong with me??
too easily tempted.
too easily wavered.

baby is the sweetest thing ever. (:
thank you for having faith in me.
and for coming up with "excuses" to overlook my flaws.
but dont indulge me too often!! =D

anyway another project/presentation down today.
shall share the video our group did for our project presentation today.
haha. really damn paiseh and retarded. but it was so fun producing it. =D

thanks fabian for being the camera-man and uploading it. however, he MIGHT be deleting it or something (due to pressure from most of us. haha) not too sure though.

afraid of losing a friend.
please not let this friend be "yet another one".

p.s.: my laptop speakers are spoilt!!!

2009-10-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

had been really really busy with school and stuffs.
was too tired and lazy to update my blog.
photo updates on fb though.

family chalet over the weekend - the last "outing" before project submissions and exam preparations.

finally my free day today. had wanted to start and finish my 5000 words individual assignment due next week today. ha. mission impossible.

spent the WHOLE of today falling asleep. like i'm on some kind of drugs or something.
kept dozing off while i read the journal article.

not yet finished, still.

oh wells.

i keep having stomache and stomach-related discomfort. :( must be the irregular meals.

gotta run off to draft out the outline for the assignment. dont want to wait till i'm done reading that boring journal. have a strong feeling i chose a wrong journal. but cant be bothered to change to another one now. HAIZ.

a quote before i go (as seen on a tee worn by a singh):
There are days I hate being me, then I smille because I'm not you.

TATA!

2009-10-18T23:55:00.008+08:00

gonna keep it short and sweet. (way behind schedule in what i need to complete by tonight, gonna work hard tomorrow~)

yesterday was a very HAPPY day.
cheryl's party was a blast.
ambience of one rochester was really nice, perfect for night time.
birthday girl was all pretty pretty in her sexy dress.
HOT smokey eyes too!
heart-warming to see "elderly" people dancing
and being more enthusiastic than the young ones.

to sum it up,

i love my foursome lovelies.

and also, the AWesome man in my life. (:

p.s.: dee, i'm gonna kop actual size photos from you when i see you with a thumbdrive!! =D

HAPPY 21st (in advance) JO-LOVE!!
snap away with the polaroid camera~

2009-10-16T23:44:00.009+08:00

dee asked why didnt i blog recently. hmm, felt rather busy and lazy lately.

have enough dosage of dee heng this week. hee. been meeting after school. haha.
sunday with dee and nn for nautical themed clothes, but to no avail. :(

young girls nowadays really LOVE show luo sia~

tuesday with dee at coffee club, high tea and study.

YUMMY Hazelnut Opera Cake (plus calamari and drinks~). Satisfied!

Confessions of a Yazuka (not Shopaholic): "No matter how in love two are, they dont need to have sex everyday..." WOW. hehe.

night with the babes. preview of My Sister's Keeper. thank you, cheryl's aunt.
touching movie! as expected, cried abit here and there.
a guy is REALLY HANDSOME if he looks DAMN HANDSOME, bald and eyebrow-less!
frolick-ed. ((:

wednesday was boyfriend's day.
but i was webcasting while he was gaming (since his laptop crashed, he's been DYING to come over for many rounds of game). and then i freaking fell asleep!!
day wasted. work unfinished. still missing you.
sorry for not being able to watch Surrogates with you. :(

met dee after school today~
sian. she bought clothes AGAIN while i couldnt find anything suitable.
you "wasteful" girl!!

list of (school-related) things to complete by this weekend:
1. editing of HR part - tonight (oh. and it's 12midnight now already)
2. start on GEK part - before cheryl's party
3. GEK tutorial - sunday morning (if i can even wake up before 12)
4. Investment tutorial - sunday afternoon
5. editing of REMA draft - sunday night
6. find a reading for BS assignment - sunday midnight

GREAT. jiayou.

* * *
was looking at some old pictures and chanced upon this...

think i look quite sweet here (maybe bcos the bad resolution). HAHA. taken by suzanne on the train home one day some (1 or 2) years ago. kinda miss long (rebond-ed) hair!!

Happy Deepavali~

2009-10-10T23:12:00.007+08:00

the horrible menstrual cramps and before-faint feeling last night almost killed me.
the blocked-nose didnt help.
thought i wouldnt be able to work today.
my body is actually stronger than i thought!

went to work UGLY today.
azleen thought i sounded "weird".
don thought i looked "tired".

day got better with nice people at work. (:

evening got even better.
dinner with andrew and mom at crystal jade.
four leaves strawberry shortcake is love.

happy belated birthday, auntie~

was in such a great mood tonight till i got pissed off with myself and then the whole world (which includes mainly mom and bro).

sometimes you just wish you didnt say what you had said.
and unfortunately, whatever you say afterwards wouldnt change a thing.

WELL DONE.

2009-10-07T13:32:00.004+08:00

nurse pinky said she is h1n1 positive. OMG.
i slept beside her just last last night when she was having "just a flu".

IDIOT.

mama is having FEVER now. and i'm having... a sorethroat??

erm, anyway h1n1 is not even serious~

woke up and mama was having a temperature of 38.6 degree celsius.
cooked porridge for her. WTH. didnt even know where is the rice.
porridge ended up being too watery. OOPS.

did the dishes afterwards. PRAISE ME!!

finally can get down to work again.
later mommy's going CGH too, in case.
should i accompany mama or not? i've got work to do...
and pinky needs to go back to the hospital today, so they're sort of going together...
and mommy says i'd better not go and contract viruses and stuffs.

hmm.

everybody, do drink lots of water!!!

* * *
woke up to some sort of nightmare.
please let it not happen in reality.

boohoo.

2009-10-05T14:14:00.004+08:00

happy 21st, glyn dear!! (days in advance)

went for glyn's ribbon and button party last night.
the atmosphere was so nice~
the fresh flowers were so pretty.
food was yummy and company great.

=D

felt super at home so no worries about "neglecting" us at all.
jasmine!! i'm thinking if i should post the room photos here! haha. especially the "taiwanese la mei" one. WAHAHA. suz's gonna kill me if she finds out.

more photos on facebook.

glad you like your presents though i sort of already spill out the "secret". haha. we're all gonna grow prettier, slimmer and straight hair together!! =D

* * *
dinner at dear's house on saturday after work.
hee. plus mao shan wang durian!!
and abit of mooncakes.
super full~

thanks drew mommy for dinner. ((:
it was yummy!

totally condemn that cat which scared the shit out of me.
even when andrew was threatening to kick it, that cat rolled over on the ground and wanted to play with him. omg. i almost died.

miss you.

2009-10-02T00:15:00.002+08:00

school ended at 4pm instead of 2pm today.

eric came to pick us and went down to bugis together.
mini cooper is nice to look at but pity is the not very comfortable backseats.
rather long journey some more. and i always feel motion sickness. :(

kena "conned" into a survey.
FIVE questions on breakfast. right....
they didnt mention what else will follow.
hui jie is SHEN!!
i feel so so so fatty and lardy.
if i'm a piece of pork, i'm the lardiest piece of pork belly.

orchard afterwards.
totally dislike the layout of ion orchard.

bidded glyn and eric farewell.
greeted baby with a smile. (:
we only have a few minutes of alone time before cindy, the lightbulb, comes along.
HAHA.

dinner at fish & co.
YUMS.
did a little shopping.
no time for mooncakes at takashimaya.

got laneige sale at wisma isetan!!
almost everything going for about $15-20.
wahaha. bought a foundation pact for only $15.
and 5 small sample bottles of night hydrating mask or something.
gave one to baby. for waiting for me and cindy outside the sale area, with our bags.
hee. THANKS dear. ((:

er, gonna alternate my maybelline mineral powder and the new foundation i guess? =D

* * *
At Wisma Forever21...

andrew: eh? the changing room changed place again?
me: ya lor. they keep changing it one. last time was upstairs, then downstairs then now upstairs again.
andrew: oh... because it's the CHANGING room......

HAHAHA. omg. i almost died.

you never fail to crack me up. =D
love you, silly.

2009-09-30T23:59:00.006+08:00

spent the day with drewboy. (:
please cook me nicer mee goreng next time.
with CP wantons!!

bumped into peggon today.
december faster come!
i wanna have dinner with the 6H bffs and with jaclyn too~
and this year we havent have a slumber party at c-jo's.

went bedok library with sister in the evening and then ah ma's house.
bubble tea treat~
had mooncakes from rendezvous.
trying to persuade and psycho ah ma to go the family chalet end of october. =D

ah boy is so cute.
we were planning a surprise birthday "party" for aunt during the family chalet.
he was like so excited about keeping a secret. (:
thinking of bringing him to the icing room to design a cake for his mommy.
she's gonna be so touched!!
but it's at freaking boon lay. -_-"
see if pinky's coming along. or i'll drag drewboy.

plan plan plan.

reached home to find a package for me!!
WAHAHA. my f21 stuffs are here~
the pair of leggings is of good material. the shape looks abit...
oh wells, hopefully will look normal when worn.

but what got me really excited was the dress! - the one i thought suitable for only formal presentation, appears to be rather appropriate for normal day out too.
ok, i dont NORMALLY wear dresses though.
anyway, the cut and fit are so flattering~
happy happy. mommy thinks it's cute and nice too.

CHERYL~ is teal colour considered a nautical colour?
gave up finding clothes to suit people's 21st themed party.
and i dont wanna re-wear what i wore to jasmine's nautical party, if possible.
andrew said i can say i represent the seaweed in the ocean~

brother was betting on me buying something else for cheryl's birthday.
oops. after receiving that dress, i do feel the urge to buy clothes like NOW.
he might be right. after all, it's CHERYL's party!! (: i ought to put in more effort.
but she did mention something about how my beauty threatens her, so i should just anyhow wear. haha. KIDDING~

hmm. papa suddenly walked over and kept stroking my hair, while smiling silly at me.
haha. he probably doesnt know i'm planning on "wasting" money again.
if not he might have been pulling my hair instead.
or like how he likes to pull my ear sometimes. *roll eyes.

recently papa has planned his driving days to be only 6 days a week.
which is much better for his ageing health. (is there even such a description??)
having one full day off, which is every thursday. he's getting old. :(
he fetches brother to camp every weekday morning now. lazy bum pig-ass.
and me to work every saturday morning. HEE.

i wonder when can i start working and earning big money so that he can retire.
hmm.

i love you, papa~

a new motto in life:
if it's bothering you, do something about it.
if not, dont let it bother you.

life is short. if we spend too much time being negative,
we will overlook and take for granted the good things.
you know you are fortunate, so quit complaining. (:

* * *
shopping with glyn after school tomorrow. WHEE~
might be meeting baby again for taka-mooncakes browsing/buying.
will see will see! =D

tomorrow - one project down!

2009-09-29T22:04:00.004+08:00

today was MEGA McSpicy day for glyn, hui jie and me. haha.
all hui jie's fault. craving for it again.

met baby to go to school together this morning. first time this semester~
reached an hour earlier before project meeting. had only one little cupcake at 8am.

project project project...

lunch was at 2 plus!! omg. STARVED.
mcspicy was too much for my empty stomach. :(

went home together after our respective project meetings. (:
lalala~

sickening guy showed me a wallpaper on his phone.
a stick man falling on the ground with the caption,
"IT TAKES ALOT OF SKILLS TO TRIP ON FLAT SURFACES"
he said it reminded him of me so he downloaded it. =P
haha. cute la!

sister came back home today!!! so happy.
watched fann wong and christopher lee's wedding.
omg. so nice la! totally in the mood for wedding.
marry me, marry me, marry me!! HA.

brides look the prettiest on their wedding day.
i love 8days. 10kg wedding gown which cost $300,000. WOW.

keke. me love dee dee~
i'm gonna write you a guide to sajiao-ing soon.
when i'm done with all the projects.

i wanna buy MORE clothes! serious. i NEED to.
jasmine jasmine, sunday?! ;)

brother's treating me and sis to dinner soon. WOOHOO~
FIRST TIME. haha. dont you just love NS?

=D happy day.

2009-09-27T13:10:00.006+08:00

Happy 21st (in advance), Paul!!
went to paul's birthday party last night.
jac jac came so late!! so did mark. but this time round i got to talk to jeffrey so much more. (:
it was nice catching up with the s21 clique. lots of really crappish stuffs.
shi yong totally amazed us. haha.

my favourite people (plus jac).

no idea why the "class photo" pose. haha. why the guys so TALL??

goodness. initally shi yong led us to a WRONG chalet which was so far in~
then amanda was like trying to tell me to pop over aps chalet, which i said i'll consider cos it isnt very convenient.ended up, aps chalet was at the same chalet as paul's, just two blocks away!

went over to say hi and stuffs around 11pm. just in time to take some group photos before joshua packed up and left. played some game that would have given me heart-attack if i played too many rounds over.

wanted to stay on longer cos i really miss gossiping and going gaga with amanda over nonsense. but someone was giving me weird vibes. so i decided to fly back to paul's chalet. haha. sms updates!!

i realise gossiping is really what bond girls together. common enemy is perhaps another. wow. i made girls sound like scary bitches.

* * *
it's ms jolene lee's birthday today. Happy Birthday! (not like she's gonna read it here anyway) sms-ed her my wishes, reminder from class clown. =P

funny that her instant replies to me usually contain, "are you still with andrew? =)"
haha. anyway thanks for the good wishes too.

wonder what will she reply if my reply was a "not anymore." haha.

*touch wood*

lalala~

* * *
the determining factor lies within the first 10 seconds of your meeting.
after that, it's too late to try establishing anything.

i thought it was alright already.
like how old are we? why so childish.

my fault? perhaps. grow up.

* * *
good luck to glyn, jasmine and myself for tomorrow's changing landscapes mid-term test!! gogo, for 20 mcq and jiayou for the essay!!

please let it be a breeze~

2009-09-25T23:37:00.005+08:00

finally trimmed my fringe!! for FREE.
heh heh. thanks to dear boy. ((:
ok, sounds damn cheapskate.
ANYWAY,
i bought maybelline mineral powder!
my face shop loose powder smells for some time already.
ha. gross...
had wanted to get ettusais foundation but it's like freaking 68 bucks. neh.

bought paul's present.
baby cut his hair and i think he looks good. haha.
the hairstylist is very nice and cute~ (cos he cut my fringe FOC)

went over to dee's to get F21 stuffs! hee.
pinky will be real happy to see her clothes tomorrow.
this time round, i only have one piece of formal blouse.
waiting for that dress (erm, which looks rather presentation formal too) and the leggings to come...

oooh. and i ordered a bag online last night. HAHA.
black studded bucket bag. black studded bucket bag. black studded bucket bag.
HAPPINESS. it's only $36.
probably gonna take a month before reaching me but i know it's worth all the wait.

i still need a bag for school. *MAJOR hint hint to AA*

formula to being happy, even after many days of depression:

some say it's ice cream, but for me...

it's retail therapy plus beloved's company!!

=D

thank you for always being there and lending a listening ear.
and for being so understanding and caring. love you~

all unhappy incidents, SHOO.
shall forget about them. FORGET.

i will be positive.
i will be positive.
i will be positive.